I pressed down on her slit and she hissed between her teeth. I rubbed a bit more and she came hard, calling out, tensing up, and backing up against me.

I pulled her down onto my lap backwards on the bed. I cursed, ready for what was next. I should have done things differently, softer, but it wasn’t me who was in charge anymore. It was my beast, and he needed her fully. Snow looked behind me then, full submission on her face as she lifted up and set herself down on me. I was good for a second or two, letting her lower herself down, but it didn’t last long.

I grabbed her hips and slammed her down the rest of the way. She threw her head back and screamed. I leaned up and bit her neck while thrusting up into her a few times. Snow was already going to come again, so I moved my hand between her legs and started to rub her clit some more. The attention, paired with a hard thrust, took her over the edge again. I throbbed as she clenched me.

I pulled out and turned her down face down on the bed. Raising her hips to the height I needed, I pushed in repeatedly. I made her come multiple times before she begged for my seed.

At some point, hearing her wasn’t enough. I needed to see her, so I turned her around and settled in between her legs. I couldn’t stop the wolf that pushed back in and made her scream. I already wanted to fill her like she begged.

I moved down to kiss her again, and our eyes locked just before I filled her deep. Snow cried out against my lips, and the desire I could feel her was overwhelming.

I finally gave in and let her take every ounce of my seed. Snow was everything that I thought she was going to be, and more. She was mine now and I knew I would never get tired of her or let her go. I wanted to tell her, “I told you so,” but I knew it would do me no good. I’d already won.

19

DUTCH

Ismelled Snow before I saw her the next morning. She was covered in pheromones and sex. I didn’t have to see her getting out of Sterling’s truck to know she had been with him. I kept hoping that Snow would come back last night, that she was just going for a walk or run or something. I didn’t want to believe she had gone off with Sterling, but I should’ve known.

Sterling said they had something between them, and I was getting proof of that now. Fuck. I had once again lost my chance, and now I worried I would never get another one. By the smell of her, I figured she and Sterling had mated. Snow was probably going to be carrying Sterling’s children before long if she wasn’t already. I really didn’t know what to think of any of that. I wasn’t going to say that I wasn’t highly disappointed, but I did know this was going to happen.

Snow saw me, and for a minute I thought she was going to walk the other way, but she smiled at me, and all I could do was smile back. I was upset, hurt, but she didn’t owe me anything, and it wasn’t like she had done anything against spite me. I was more upset that I had waited so long to figure out how I felt about her and if I should act on it.

“Is he taking off for a while and dropping you off with me?” I asked her.

“Yeah, you don’t mind, do you?”

“No. But why don’t we go for a swim?” Snow loved the water first thing in the morning, and I would have done anything to get the smell of Sterling off of her.

* * *

I hada feeling that tonight would be the night they attacked. It was a blood moon, which would be so cliché, but Sterling and I put everyone on lookout anyway at the emergency meeting he had called.

Sterling also made the announcement that he mated Snow. I wanted to be upset about it, I wanted to argue and tell them both that they were making a mistake. I had waited so long for her. She was mine, but I had also promised that I would keep her safe. That meant I had to let it go for just a while.

Snow was nervous. She worried that she would fail, and Ariana would win. I wanted to assure her again that nothing was going to happen, but doing so would have made me a liar. I didn’t know what was going to happen. I just had high hopes for what I wanted to happen.

I was glad that Sterling left Snow with me. He knew I would not let anything happen to her, even though I was upset with whatever the hell was going on between the two of them. But that didn’t matter right now. I had to keep reminding myself of that. I needed to focus. There was a whole pack of shifters on the way, and they were all gunning for Snow. There’s no way I would let them accomplish their mission.

“When that man from my memory said I had to fight, I think he meant I physically have to fight Ariana. I don’t like conflict and violence, but I’m starting to understand Sterling when he says that sometimes violence is necessary. It feels like it’s necessary with her. I can’t leave my people under her thumb. Whatever happens, you need to let me do this. It’s what I have to do, and you can’t be there for me Dutch.”

“Do you really think I am so weak?” I tried to keep the hurt out of my voice. Why did she think so little of me?

“I don’t think you’re weak, I think you want to be strong for me, but I need to do this myself. I don’t know how I know this, but I know it has to be me. Please don’t be offended. Just know that it’s something I have to do.”

“Do you really expect me to stand by and watch you fight by yourself?”

“You won’t want to, but you have to. I want to take out Ariana before all of the Blood Moons are killed. You have to take care of your people and I mean to get my revenge. She took years away from my life. I can’t let that go, and I can’t let my people be ruled by her. I don’t know if I want to do what Sterling suggests and become their leader, but I want to help.”

“You’ll do what you think is best for yourself and everyone involved,” I told her, and I meant it too.

She started to answer me, but then I saw a strange look on her face. Pain bloomed on the side of my head like I’d been hit with something. Before I could react, blackness started eating away at my vision. As I was falling, Snow shifted into a large wolf, her fur pure white as the driven snow. She almost never shifted in front of people, even me, and the last thought I had before blacking out was that it was such a treat to see her that way.

* * *

I openedmy eyes and saw fire all around me. Shifters, humans, and animals from the forest seemed to be fighting in a world of flames. I pushed myself halfway up, looking for Snow, but the dizziness was so bad that I fell unconscious yet again.

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