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I blink a few times. “Wait, so you knew all along that I would be the one to enter the closet? What did they say to you?”

“I didn’t go to your high school. The party was at my neighbor’s, and he had been talking forever about my getting laid…”

“So he was your wingman?”

“Not really, apparently. He was supposed to have… I don’t know. He got me too. I didn’t know that they were going to do what they did. Jack told me to be in the closet, that he would bring you in, that he would let me know when it was time to come out.”

“And I opened the closet door.”

“I knew then what was going on, and I kissed you.”

“Which was when I realized that…”

“That I wasn’t Jack? That I wasn’t hot and sexy and muscular but a fat—”

“Stop it!”

“Why?” he demands. “You only had sex with me that night because of feeling sorry for me.”

“For us,” I murmur. “They set me up too, remember? But as awkward as it had been, two heavy people going oat it in that tiny closet, I don’t regret it, and you were my first too. If I could go back, I wouldn’t change anything.”

He narrows his eyes. “You couldn’t get out of there fast enough. You fixed your clothes, and you ran out of there without looking back. By the time I had my clothes on and came out, you had left the party, and I didn’t see you again until after you came… Out of all the gyms in the world, you had to come into mine.”

“It’s not yours. It’s Gary’s,” I say lamely. “Lucas, I…” I close my eyes briefly. “No wonder you would make comments about my getting some. Only I haven’t. Not really. One other guy. That’s it. And I will tell you the truth. I have thought of you from time to time. I just didn’t… I never saw you. It was so dark, and I know that doesn’t exactly play in my favor or make me look much better, considering I lost my virginity to a guy I never even saw… but I was tired of being played, and… it was awkward because there wasn’t enough room, and I had no idea what I was doing… It hadn’t even put two and two together that you were fumbling because it was your first time too… I’ve never regretted it. Not once. It was the first time in my life that I did something for me.”

He grunts. “No, you didn’t. You did it because you were upset, and it was a pity fuck.”

“I would never fuck someone out of pity,” I snap.

“But you would let a random stranger shove his cock—”

“You didn’t know me, but you were all too willing to shove your cock into me, but that’s okay because you saw me first.”

Why is it that he’s still able to infuriate me like no other?

Lucas shakes his head. “This is it. It’s over between us. Goodbye, Dawn.”

He steps forward, though, invading my personal space. He brushes back my hair tenderly, and he cups my face, staring deeply into my eyes, so deeply that I can only assume he can see deep inside to my very soul.

And then he kisses me.

And I know it’s a goodbye kiss.

CHAPTER33

Only I’m not ready for goodbye.

Not by a long shot.

To think that he was my first…

And I was his first…

He turns to leave.

“I’m not letting you go again,” I say firmly.

I grab him and kiss him again, pouring everything that is within me into that kiss.

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