Page 110 of A Crown of Lies

“Oh!”

She swore and gritted her teeth as he pushed in, her body flashing between pleasure and the burning pain of being stretched to take him. Though there was a little pain, the stretch felt satisfying in a way nothing else had been. He moved slowly, carefully, as if he knew. It would’ve almost been easier if he hadn’t taken such care. She dug fingernails into his back and shoulders, biting her lip as he slid inside of her.

“Tight,” he panted next to her ear. “Gods, you’re so fucking tight.”

He kissed her but didn’t move. For a long moment, nothing moved. There was just her pulse screaming in her ears, her body singing with the sweetest pain. The feeling of being so full after being so empty was so deliciously dizzying, she felt like she was sinking into the mattress.

“Rixxis…” His voice wavered and broke. “Please…”

Her heart jumped in her chest as she realized he was waiting for permission to move. He was shaking from the effort of holding himself back, of waiting for her to adjust to him.

“Yes,” came her choked reply. “Gods, yes!”

Rowan’s groan sent a shiver of pleasure through her that only intensified when he started to move inside her. He pulled back, hands traveling down her body to her legs and thrust in again in one move. She cried out, but not because of the pain. That was quickly fading. It was the sensation of fullness, of being so full of him she didn’t know where he ended, and she began.

He shifted her legs higher, and she wrapped them around his lower back, allowing him to thrust deeper, harder, slower.

“Fuck, yes,” he panted. “Hold on to me like that.”

As if she had any other choice. This wasn’t the slow lovemaking she’d had with Ieduin. There was a roughness to it, a desperation that only heightened every sensation. Even the explosion of his panting breaths against her sweat dampened skin was so intensely pleasurable, she was lost in it.

“I love the way you take me,” he groaned and slammed into her. “The sounds and faces you make when I’m inside of you.” Another snap of his hips that left her mind reeling. “Tell me you’re mine.” He pounded into her again. “Say it, Rixxis.”Slam. “Say. You’re. Mine.” Each word was punctuated with an increasingly desperate thrust into her. Sweat ran down his back, making it difficult to hold on to him without digging her fingernails in.

Rixxis reached for words and found them nearly out of reach. He already had her sitting on the edge of orgasm. Thought was next to impossible, let alone speech, yet the words fell out of her, anyway. “I’m yours! I’m yours, Rowan!”

“Fuck yes, you are,” he growled and kept up the rough pace. “You’ll be my wife. My lover. Myqueen.”

“All of it!” she said breathlessly. “Anything you want! Just don’t fucking stop!”

“I want you to come. Right now. Make that pussy squeeze me tight like a good girl.”

She told herself it wasn’t the order that made her slip over the edge, but then it didn’t matter. She was doing it anyway, with or without his instruction. Her body clenched around him, and it was bliss, pure bliss.

He didn’t slow his pace or lighten up. The pleasure storm lightened to a dull haze that left every touch, every breath feeling like an aftershock, and then intensified again, sending her into another orgasm.

After the next thrust, he started trying to pull out of her to finish, but she tightened her legs around him. She wanted him to finish inside of her, as Ieduin had.

“Rixxis…” he whispered through desperate pants, looking down at her.

“I want you to. Please, Rowan.”

She understood the risk, even in the throes of pleasure, and she needed it just the same.Heneeded it.

Rowan gave in with a grunt, thrusting so deep it left her aching. She cried out, the ache quickly turning into another dizzying spasm of pleasure as his body quaked over and inside her, and she knew he’d found his release, too.

After it was over, he stayed where he was, pressing trembling lips to her neck and cheek and breathing hard. Slowly, she lowered her legs from where they were wrapped tightly around him.

He groaned, pulling back enough to kiss her lips, but didn’t leave her body just yet. There was a bright pink flush to his cheeks that somehow made him even more handsome. “Rixxis, I’ve never…” His red face flushed a little more and his mouth spread into a sheepish grin that made him look younger, almost boyish. “You’re the first woman who’s ever let me do that.”

Her face burned hot. He’d never finished inside a woman before? Divine, that couldn’t be true. Rowan must’ve had dozens of lovers, and probably at least half of them were women. How could she ever be the first to do anything with him?

He only let out a small chuckle in response and kissed her nose before withdrawing with another small grunt. How was it possible to feel both satisfied and empty at the same time? She was mostly sated, but if he’d asked for more, she’d have gladly given it. Or maybe she could go back to Ieduin. It’d drive him mad if she found him before she bathed. He’d want to fuck her just because she’d been with Rowan. The thought sent another strong pulse of desire through her.

What’s wrong with me? Suddenly I’m some sex-crazed idiot? Ieduin must be contagious…Why should it matter, though? She was tired of being ashamed of what she wanted, and if she wanted to have them both in one night, what was going to stop her? They’d both already said they were fine with it.

Rowan let out a satisfied sigh and shifted next to her, putting an arm over her and kissing her shoulder. “You don’t have to do that, you know. I’m fine with finishing however. There’s a very popular contraceptive tea that I can get. Or, if you’d rather, I can have Giza make something for me. There’s a potion. Tastes like soot and last year’s pickled turnips, but I’ll take it if that’s easier.”

Rixxis wanted to die of embarrassment.We’re not having this conversation right now, of all the worst moments to talk about contraception…“Did… Did you not want to?”

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