Page 41 of Seeking Two Lovers

Fuck, did I want.

I didn’t just lust to get her into my bed with Blaine on the other side of her. My heart yearned for that image in my head to become reality. The three of us fully sated as I expected a romp in the sheets would leave us, me and my best friend spooning the hell out of her tight little body. She would fit perfectly, and not one thing I’d seen in her would turn Blaine away.

She would be perfect for him—for us.

Me.

Unease stirred inside me, that goddamn poking intuition I hadn’t pinpointed until that moment. I named it inside my head for what it was—fear of abandonment. Having your mother ripped from your life at the age you needed her love and edification the most had bonded me and Dad together and had us both sitting with therapists, but the wounds remained.

I loathed the feelings of insecurity that lingered, keeping me from pursuing any type of relationship with a woman.

But I’d always had Blaine, and he’d been enough.

He might not be ready to meet Lily, like his quietness the previous couple of days suggested, but something inside me grew restless as the night wore on. Perhaps it was the news I’d gotten from Higgins or the need for quiet, the rest and sense of belonging I felt with Blaine.

I texted him after everyone nibbled their chocolate cake and finished off a couple more bottles of champagne. We have cake. Sure you don’t want to come down and have some?

It took him a good fifteen minutes to reply, just long enough that I considered heading up the stairs to check on him.

B: I’m good.

My fingers tapped out a text before I could second-guess myself, the image of the three of us together too vivid in my head to let go. I hated being needy, but I couldn’t stop the urge to be proactive. So, I met this girl…

B: Yeah?

Me: I think you’d like her.

B: Not really interested right now.

Exactly as I’d figured, but for the first time, my selfishness wanted to push him past his limits. An idea lit in my head, and my stubbornness proved too strong.

Me: You and I are going out for drinks tomorrow night. No excuses. I miss my best friend.

B: What if I have plans?

I snorted a laugh. Nice try.

Next, I texted Lily with a location and time for the following evening.

Bikini girl got right back to me with a Bossy.

Grinning, I repeated the texted order.

She sent me an eye roll emoji.

Me: I have someone I want you to meet.

It took her an hour to get back to me, but her simple OK set my mind more at ease than it had been all day.

I just hoped the feeling carried over to the following night.

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LILY

Blaine was shy as hell and just as adorable.

I wondered if he was a virgin, but with how he watched my lips move, I expected he thought about having a taste. All he had to do was initiate and I’d gladly be on board.

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