Page 79 of Thalia De Luca

I heard Jane got admitted to the hospital as well. Someone found her outside on the balcony, passed out. Right now, she is sleeping and they are doing exams on her. I plan on visiting her once she is awake.

Eventually we see Leo and Emma walk in with sadness across their faces.

No.

I stand up. "What happened?"

"He is in a coma from the surgery, but the doctors don't know what will happen. They said he needs a miracle and that he is fighting but they don't know what to do," Emma says.

I try not to cry. "Can I see him?" I ask and she nods her head. Before I go, I hug them both without saying anything and then I leave the room to run to Alexander's. I walk inside and I feel another tear slip from my eye. "Jesus, Xander."

His eyes are closed and he is hooked up to multiple machines.

The sight looks scary.

I walk further into the room and sit on the chair next to his bed. "I can't believe I’m going to do this," I whisper. "Alexander Russo, my enemy, my old best friend, the guy I want to kiss the most but also shoot the most." I let out a sob. "Killian told me that he lost someone he cared about a lot and after she died, he realized that he loved her. He didn’t tell me that but I could tell. I think that's what's happening right now. I feel like I always did but I didn't want to admit it to myself because you're right, I was a scared bitch," I chuckle lightly. "But you, Alexander Russo, are the one person to make me feel so happy and so fucking alive. I feel like I can breathe when I am around you. I feel safe and loved."

I stand up and walk closer to his bed. "I, Thalia De Luca slash Russo, love you, Alexander Russo. I know you said that you are selfish enough to have you die instead of me but I don't want you to be selfish right now. I know I told you that love isn't real but now I know what everyone is talking about when they say they are in love," I take a deep breath and a few more tears escape as I let a sob out. “I wish I a week ago when we made love.”

Fuck, I never cry.

Of course, Alexander Russo is making me cry.

"You can let go. I will be okay and so will your mom and dad, I will take care of them. I know how hard it is to fight and I don't want you to anymore. I know you're probably hurting so much to fight your way back. You can let go," I say before pressing a kiss to his lips softly while trying to hold in my tears.

He doesn't kiss back which makes tears come out of my eyes. I remove my lips from his and kiss his forehead. I lean my head on his stomach and wrap my arms around him.

I let out a sob when I don't feel his arms wrap around me.

"I love you, Alexander," I say before crying into his stomach and holding him.

Forty One

SIX YEARS LATER

"Baby, we got to go!" I yell from the kitchen as I grab the flowers and my car keys.

I hear footsteps come from upstairs and I see Landon in a gray jacket with dark blue jeans on.

"Is it okay if I wear this?" Landon asks.

I smile and walk towards him and kneel so that I am at his height. "Of course, baby. You look perfect." I kiss him on his cheek and then stand up. "Now we have to go because grandpa is going to be there before us." I take Landon's hand, and he holds the flowers in his other tiny hand.

"Is uncle Killian coming too?"

"Of course, he is."

Landon and I walk out of the house, and I lock the door. We both get inside my car and he gets situated in his car seat.

I am so thankful that he isn't a baby anymore because if he was then I was probably one more breakdown away from breaking the damn thing.

"Mommy," Landon asks, making me look in the rearview mirror to look at him.

"Yes, baby?"

"I wish I could meet him."

The small smile on my face wipes away. "I know. I'm sorry."

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