Page 19 of Meant to Be

“Snap. That’s something we have in common.”

Looking into her eyes, I smile. I feel happy when I’m with her.

“So, your Mum won’t mind me being here will she?”

“No way. She’s probably in bed anyway.”

I brush that story under the carpet for another day. Pulling her in through the open door, I close it behind her and slide the small lock across. I put the lock on my door when I turned twelve, to keep my dad out of here.

I sit next to her on the bed, with my hand resting on her leg. My fingers stroking up and down on her skin. She bites the corner of her lip nervously.

“We don’t have to do this. I can just hold you if you want?”

“No, I want to.”

My head nods before I find my voice again. “Are you a virgin, Shelby?” Her nervous and wide eyes find mine.

“No,” she says nervously.

“You can tell me,” I assure her.

“Yes....” I nod again then cover her cheek and pull her closer to me, our lips barely touching. For some reason I’m feeling nervous, there's a slight tremor in my hands - I’m never like this around a girl, but then they’ve never meant anything to me either. Pressing her lips against mine, I take advantage of her offering and kiss her like I’ve never kissed her before, pushing us back to lie on the bed. My hands are roaming over her petite body and finding the bottom of her top I push it up revealing her flat stomach.

“Arms up.”

I push up further and over her head. Shelby pulls it from her head and flings it to the floor. Rolling her onto her back, I push up onto my knees and undo her skirt, pulling them down her legs, over her boots. Then I take the zip and pull it down on each leg and pull those off too until she’s part naked underneath me. I unzip my jeans and push them down, leaving my boxers on. I can’t tell what’s going through her head though.

“You okay?”

She only nods. Leaning down I kiss her again then lie on top of her, holding my body off her with my elbows.

“Want to get into bed?”

“Yes please.” She answers quietly.

Getting up I pull back the duvet, and she climbs inside, covering herself with it. Not wanting to scare her, I leave on my boxers and slip into the bed and take them off. Stiffly, she lies next to me. Turning my head to the side, I take her in, her eyes are closed, but she looks tense. I take her hand in mine and roll to my side towards her. I place our joined hand on my crotch and wait for Shelby’s reaction. She doesn’t speak, just closes her eyes.

“Shelby? Please, if you don’t want to... we don’t have to, but you have to be honest with me.”

“I want to - I’m just nervous.” She answers quietly. Facing her, I stroke her pretty face with my knuckle.

“Open your eyes,” I whisper. They flutter open slowly, crooking my finger I direct her to come closer to me. Edging over, she stops when there’s no gap between us.

“I won’t hurt you, I promise.” She nods, lifting her chin until her lips are touching mine. Her hand begins to move, tender touches stroking softly until her breast is filling my palm, softly kneading until she’s biting down on her lip.

“I love you, Jax.” She turns her head to the side.

Stopping in my path, I shift the hair from her face, I want to see her pretty eyes.

“I think I love you too, Shelby.”

“Really?”

“Yeah, really. I’ve never said that to anyone before.”

Smiling, I see the twinkle in her eye. Looking away for a second, I look in the drawer, but I find I have no condoms. Scowling, I look back to her.

“What’s wrong?” Her voice sounding worried.

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