Page 22 of Knot All Is Lost: Part 2

My jaw clenched as I tried to keep from screaming at her. It wouldn’t matter, we’d gotten into knock out drag out arguments time and time again, changing nothing.

“Spencer is over the moon, the two of them get along wonderfully. It’s adorable to watch them together as they set up her nest. What I think I love most about her though, is how much she understands and encourages the love between Spencer and me. Not to mention, the same goes for Spencer and Marius. Between the four of us, there’s more love than any of us know what to do with,” I explained, feeling the truth in my heart.

Not once had it distressed Cambrie that we cared for more than just her. In fact, I think she enjoys watching us together as much as she likes to participate, not that I would ever tell my mother that. It might send her into cardiac arrest, and that is the last thing I needed to deal with right now.

“Oh,” Mother commented, before a long pause as if she was trying to figure out what to say next. “Just know that might change, darling, Omegas are known for being selfish when it comes to the attention of their Alphas. I only want the best for you, and don’t want you to be surprised if she requests that you break it off.”

The fact my mother was speaking that way about Cambrie caused me to snap. “That will never happen because Cambrie loves Spencer as much as I do, and once a Beta is bonded to an Alpha there’s no going back. So, I’d appreciate it if you got used to having a son who loves a man named Spencer Wells and used it when speaking about him. If you and Father can’t do that, then I don’t need you in my life. My pack has been more of a family to me than you two ever have been and I won’t hear you say one more word against any of them,” I barked into the phone.

“Darling, what are you saying?” Mother spluttered.

“Was that too complicated for you? Let me break it down to one simple concept. Accept who I am, who I love, or don’t and forget that I’m your son. It’s up to you,” I stated bluntly.

“Dar… Darling, you can’t mean that.” Mother sobbed. “How can you say that to me?”

“You have two other children who seem to disappoint you less than I do. Pin all your hopes and dreams on them instead of me because clearly, I’m not meeting the standards you’ve put in place. I love Spencer and Cambrie, they love each other as much as they love me. How is sharing an Omega with the rest of my pack any different than sharing Spencer with Marius?” I demanded. “I’m my own man with my own pack, and you need to trust I’m doing what’s best for me.”

“I’m sorry you feel that way about me, but all I’ve ever wanted is what’s best for you,” Mother sighed.

“The fact that you don’t see how your best is choosing to hurt me more by asking me to leave Spencer says everything I need to know. I won’t be answering your calls anymore, Mother. If you wish to speak with me then you can come to the house and spend time with us all,” I shared before ending the call and tossing the phone on the bed.

Dropping my head in my hands, I thought long and hard about what I’d just said to my mother. As I said them it made me realize, in some ways I had been acting like my mother when it came to sharing Spencer with Marius. How did I feel so comfortable with Cambrie being with all of us and so insecure about Marius? I’ve known that man my whole life and he would never do something to hurt me or Spence. So, what made me feel that one day Spence would be asked to choose between us?

Shoving up from my bed I headed to Marius’s room, needing to talk this out with my best friend. No matter what’s happened, he’s always been there for me with sound advice and right now that’s what I needed. When I entered his room, I heard the water running telling me he was in the shower. Just as I was about to leave, I heard a moan that I knew came from Spence.

Time to put up or shut up.

Heading to the bathroom, I entered and found Marius wrapped around Spencer’s body from behind, slowly fucking him as the water poured over them. Spencer spotted me first and smiled, reaching a hand out to me without a second thought. This is what I’d been blind to until Cambrie entered the picture. You could absolutely love more than one person with all your heart at the same time. Spencer didn’t take his heart and divided it up evenly between us, he gave all of it and himself to each of us. Just like Cambrie took my heart with her as much as Spencer held it in that very hand reaching out to me.

Stripping out of my clothes, I joined them. Marius looked up from where his face had been nestled in Spencer’s neck and grinned. “Care to join us?”

“Abso-fucking-lutly,” I answered, then cupped Spencer’s face. “I’ve missed out on too much fearing that one day you might choose not to be shared between us. I’m sorry I didn’t understand what you’ve been trying to tell me, but I hear you now, my Prince.”

The smile that lit up Spencer's face was priceless as I pulled him into a deep passionate kiss, letting him feel everything I’d been holding back because of fear. If only Cambrie was here for me to thank her for helping me see what I was missing out on. Soon, soon we would have her back and I wasn’t going to be afraid anymore and claim her as mine, ours, so we would never lose her again.

Chapter 10

Spinningaroundtotakein Savo from head to toe, everything started to make so much more sense. The way that I responded to him, the need to please, be touched, and unable to distance myself from him was because he was an Alpha. He had been since the day I met him, but why had I believed he was a Beta? None of this was making sense.

“Who are you really?” I demanded. When he tried to reach for me, I darted back. “No, I won’t let you cloud my mind with your Alpha scent and magnetic pull you all seem to have on me. I need answers and I want themnow,” I growled between clenched teeth.

The same feelings that had welled up in me when I thought Nixon was trying to get rid of me flared to life.How could he do this to me? He said he would protect me but all he’s done is lie.

“Cambrie, do not run away from me,” Savo warned. The Alpha tone in his voice was hard to miss now that I knew what it was. He’d used it that first night he’d had his face buried between my legs. “We are going to finish cleaning up, dry off, and then we will sit and talk, allowing me to explain things.”

“Why should I listen to you? You’re notmyAlpha,” I snapped. Even as I said it, I knew it wasn’t true. The moment he held me in my room he’d proven the kind of Alpha he was, caring for me when I didn’t know I needed it. I was hurt and lashing out because I had no control over anything happening in my life.

Savo took a step forward and placed his hand around my jaw gently, forcing me to look into his eyes. “You and I both know that’s not true,Keksík.I’ve already claimed you as mine, as much as you’ve claimed me as yours. So, let’s both make a pact that we won’t lie to each other now that all of this is out in the open.”

“How do I know you’re not lying to me just to get me to fall in line? Maybe they put you here with me so I would trust you, then you’d mark me and take me away from my pack,” I said, unwilling to move on from this so easily.

All my life people had been manipulating me for whatever purpose suited them and I was sick of it. I’d thought Savo was different and he had nothing to gain from this, but knowing he was an Alpha changed everything.

Savo let go of my face, turned off the water, grabbed a towel and wrapped me up so my arms were trapped by my side as he stepped out of the shower, setting me on the counter next to the sink. Leaving me there tangled up in the towel, he slipped on a robe and picked me up once more. I squirmed and wriggled, trying to get out, but he’d done something to make it impossible. Back in the bedroom, he took a seat in one of the armchairs with me in his lap. Not saying anything, he just waited as I thrashed about until I gave up panting, still not as strong as I’d like to be after my captivity.

“Are you ready to listen now,Keksík?” Savo asked, his tone neutral, not betraying any of his emotions.

Glaring, I shook away a piece of wet hair that fell in my face with a huff. “What’s there to listen to?”

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