Page 132 of Heartless
She laughs now. “Yeah. You barfed in the cab and the cabby asked if you’d been drinking Jägermeister because the entire car smelled like it.”
I shudder. “I’ve still never had another sip of it because of that. Anyway, feeling like that about water right now.”
“Are you nauseous?”
“A bit,” I concede. “But I don’t think it’s hormonal.”
“Is it Cade?”
“Yeah. And Luke. I’m worried about them. Imissthem and it’s been all of a day since I left. I shouldn’t be this dependent on him. I should be able to handle a day away from him without missing him so much that it makes me feel sick. I can’t even sleep,” I growl in frustration.
Summer smiles softly at me, reaching over to push some hair behind my ear. “Wils, welcome to being in love.”
I squeeze my eyes shut and flop my head back against the couch. “This is the worst fucking feeling. Why do people like being in love again? Obsessed and emotional and clingy. Overrated, if you ask me.”
“I know you’re joking because that’s what you do when you’re upset.”
“Jesus. Have you and Cade been conspiring against me or something? Why are you both always pointing this out about me? Just let me have my quirks, okay?”
“It’s okay to feel sad, Willa. It’s okay to feel overwhelmed. It’s definitely okay to need a couple of days alone to digest. But you can overthink this too. You can turn it inside out until it looks like something different than what it is.”
I hold my hands over my face, feeling tears leak out against them. “What is it? I don’t even know.”
Summer rubs my back because she is some sort of angel sent to planet Earth. A better person than the vast majority of us. “I don’t know what it is. But from where I’m sitting, it’s two smart loving adults who are navigating a curve ball in the best way they know how.”
A sob racks my body.
“It’s two people who were both a little lost until they ended up on the same path and walked together for a while.”
I drop my head, openly crying now. I think Summer istryingto make me weep.
“It’s two people who are happier in each other’s company than they are alone.” Now I can hear the tears in her voice too. “Better together than they are apart.”
I turn to hug her now, wondering if I can blame the uncontrollable way I’m crying on my hormones.
“Just don’t make him wait too long, Wils,” she whispers against my ear. “He isheartbrokenwithout you.”
The way she emphasizes heartbroken is my undoing. I soak the shoulder of her shirt, because the truth of the matter is I thought I needed space...
But I’m heartbroken without him too.
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Cade
Summer:Hi! Just messaging to see if you’d like to come for dinner?
Harvey:Hi, son. Thinking I could take Luke off your hands for the day.
Rhett:My wife messaged you about dinner. You haven’t answered. Don’t be rude to her or I’ll drive over and kick your ass.
Jasper:Want free tickets to the game tonight? Would love to see you and Luke.
Violet:I was told to message you and see if you’d respond. You’re too old to sulk, Cade. Knock it off.
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All I wanted from the main house was the bags of cement from the shed. All I need is to get lost in some physical labor. Alone. Away from pitying looks and overbearing family.
