Her bottom lip gets clamped down by her teeth, which makes me want to crawl over to her and release it.
“Are you sure you still want me? That you still want to be with me? Especially knowing everything that I did against you?”
Her questions somber me up.
I let out a sigh. “Why are you asking me this?”
“Because I don’t want to cause you any more
pain.” She lets out almost like she’s in pain herself.
I can see why she may think that. Why she may think that she may cause me more pain.
Because of the lies and who she was working with, there was a possible chance that I wouldn’t have made it back yesterday. I could have died and it would be because of her actions.
But that’s not the way I see it.
And I don’t blame her for what happened, not once was that a thought.
I answer her question as honestly as I possibly can.
“Yes. I still want you.” I say, getting up from bed and walking over to her.
“Even if I’m just the nanny?”
“You were never just the nanny. You have always been more.”
Breathless and in pain, but I do it. I take her face between my hands and make sure she looks me in the eyes as I say the next words.
“I still want to be with you. As long as the deception stops here. On both of our parts. That’s the only way that this will work. No more lies, no more emission. Just trust and love. That is all.”
Her hand comes up and covers mine as she moves her head slightly to place a kiss on my palm.
When she turns back to look at me, she gives me a teary smile.
So much crying has been happening today.
“No more deception.” She agrees, before standing on her tiptoes and placing a chaste kiss on my mouth.
As much as I want to continue the kiss, I pull away from her, my forehead settling on hers.
“If I didn’t need to take it easy, I would be fucking you right now.”
Arianna lets out a hum. “I know but might have a solution.”
“Oh yeah? What’s that?”
Her hands land on my body, sliding against my bare chest, her fingers softly gliding against my stitching.
“Let me take care of you.” She purrs, leaning and in and placing kisses against my skin. Her lips following the path of her fingers. .
“Go right ahead.” I say, marveling in her light touches.
She covers my chest and the other edge of my stitches with kisses before taking my hand and guiding me back to the bed.
Once I’m on my back, she does what I wanted to do when she walked in. She strips her clothes off.
“Too bad there’s no music playing, like there was at the club.” I say as I lean up on my elbows to watch.