Page 90 of Marks of Rebellion
"I am. I scare you."
I grasp his hand. "No."
"It's pointless denying it. Facts are facts."
My insides quiver.
He's going to break up with me.
"I'm sorry. I'm not sure why it keeps happening around you."
"Tell me what I can do so I don't affect you like that again."
There are no answers for me to give him. I'm powerless over how to control it. And it rips my soul that he feels responsible for my inability to control my own body. I blurt out, "This isn't your fault. It's mine."
"I'm not here to go back and forth over blame, Flower. You deserve a man who isn't going to make you shake in fear."
He's done with me. He's had enough.
I wipe my tears. "I'm sorry."
"Stop apologizing."
My heart shatters into pieces. What was I thinking, being with Hunter? He has his life together.
He's out of my league.
He doesn't need me and my complex issues.
I'm just hurting him.
"Tell me what you need from me, Flower. I don't want you to keep going through this."
Why can't I be normal?
"Please. Whatever it is, just be straight with me." he begs.
"I can't give you an answer," I choke out. "I don't control it. It just happens."
"But I'm triggering you. I'm causing it somehow."
"No. You aren't."
"I am. So tell me what you need."
I can't let him break up with me.
I rise and sit on his lap. "I need you, Hunter. That's it. Not any other version other than who you are. Please, give me another chance. I don't want to lose you." Tears fall faster.
He cups my face. "You think I want to leave you?"
"Don't you?"
"No. But I want to be the man you deserve, not one who hurts you."
"Stop saying you hurt me. You haven't laid a finger on me and never would."
"But you cower when I come near you whenever you have a panic attack. Tell me what I'm doing so I can stop."
