Page 20 of Crazed

So that's what I do. I focus on all the different blues swirling in them as he studies me with his scrutinizing stare. I control the things I can, and when fresh tears are rolling down my cheeks, only then does he bark, "Come now!"

He thrusts harder, and my body collapses around him, spasming with euphoria.

"Fuuuuck," he moans, gritting his teeth. His cock pumps and swells even bigger, pushing me higher.

My body gives out. I squirt all over him, unable to control anything, receiving a surge of adrenaline unlike anything I've ever experienced.

Silence fills the air, except for my heavy breaths through my nose. His heart thumps against my chest, matching my rapid beats. And all I can think is how much I don't want this to end—how I would give anything to never lose us.

But it's impossible.

5

Massimo

If I could have createda perfect woman, Katiya would be it. She's beyond gorgeous, but it's not just her outer appearance.

She took it.

All of it.

And she loved it and me.

I release her legs from around my waist and unlatch the leather strap. The ball stays in her mouth, so I gently command, "Open up, dolce."

She obeys.

I remove the ball and kiss her, sliding my tongue in her mouth the moment we make contact. She returns my affection as if I'm her everything, which is ironic since she's the one who's mine.

"Let me untie you," I mumble, then reach up for her wrists, unknot the rope, then untwist it from her body. I pick her up and carry her through her bedroom and into the bathroom.

She curls into me, kissing my neck, sending a new wave of emotions through my chest.

Before Katiya, I never knew what it was like to love someone so fiercely that I couldn't imagine my life without them. I'd had women tell me they loved me, but I never said it back. They'd get pissed, but I wasn't going to confess something that wasn't true. Maybe it also was because I never felt the love they claimed to have for me.

Everything is different with Katiya. She's an onion, and with every layer I peel back, I find something new about her I love. Plus, she never judges me. No matter what kind of deviant act I want to do with her or how harsh I come across at times, she accepts all my faults. And these moments after I've dominated and controlled her until she's in tears before giving her the release she's desperate for does something to me. She clings to me as if she needs my love more than I need hers. It's like she knows exactly how to reach into my soul and wrap hers tighter around mine.

I kiss the top of her head and turn on the shower. The water heats quickly, so I kiss her again and ask, "Can you stand, dolce?"

"Yes," she replies. She lifts her head and drills me with her blues. They appear tired and content, but something else swirls in them.

Alarm bells ring in my head. I set her on her feet in the shower and keep hold of her to ensure she has her footing. "Is something wrong?"

She hesitates then shakes her head. "No. Everything is perfect right now."

"You sure?" I ask, studying her face.

She smiles and nods, sliding her arms around my shoulders and lacing her fingers in my hair. "Yes. I wish you wouldn't have left this morning."

My chest tightens. My brothers had been sending me messages all day yesterday. I was with Katiya and ignored them. Their accusations about her are getting old. I suppose I could tell them everything she told me about Ludis and Leo, but it's not their business. Besides, they should believe my word, but somewhere along the way, they stopped. I spin her so the warm water is on her back, and respond, "I'm sorry. I had business to deal with."

She reaches up and cups my cheek while wrapping the other arm around my waist. She asks, "Is everything okay?"

I step as close as possible to her. After we have sex is my time to take care of her. I don't need her worrying about my family issues. Plus, I can't tell her what's going on. It would hurt her. The last thing I'm ever going to do is cause her any harm. I kiss her then state, "Everything is perfect. I'm with you."

She tilts her head. "But your business...did something happen?"

I shift on my feet and grab the shampoo bottle, squirting a handful in my palm, wanting to change the subject back to us. "Yep. Same old shit, different day. All good, except it required me to leave you. But now that I'm here, you have me the rest of the day. Spin."

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