Page 47 of Ashes of Sin and Stardust

With his other hand, he held my chin firmly, letting his nails dig in there too. The pleasure in my belly began to grow. The way he was staring at me, and the scent of his skin, and the feeling of absolute uselessness began to settle over me. Holy shit, he was going to melt me right into a puddle on the ground.I can’t give up that easily,I thought. But I wanted to. I wanted to let go, and melt.

“Now you listen to me. You’re going to go out there and apologize to your friends for being a nuisance and a brat. Then you’re going to go upstairs to your room so I can finish punishing you. And if you give me an ounce of shit during any of that, I promise you, you will regret it. Do you understand?”

I nodded, not wanting to make him any angrier than he already was.

A low rumble started in his chest as he stared at me, his eyes devouring every inch of me like a hungry animal. My stomach clenched at the look in his eyes.Oh my God, I really had no idea what I was in for, did I? Why am I this stupid?

“Open your mouth.”

Slowly, hesitating slightly, I did as he asked. He leaned forward like he was going to kiss me. I held my breath, but I didn’t feel his lips. Instead, a wad of spit fell onto my tongue.

Another clench in my gut and a subtle wave of pleasure burned through my body at the shock and the degrading nature of the act. I looked up at him, unable to respond.

“Close.” He tapped my chin and I obeyed, feeling his spit sit like a strange creature on the surface of my tongue. “Swallow.”

I couldn’t resist the order. My eyes fluttered shut as I did, another slight tremor running through me, and I squirmed at the pressure in my belly. I was slick between my legs to the point of soaking through my tights. I stood there, pinned against the wall, tears in my eyes, almost floating from the feeling of being so completely taken over by him.

He slapped me on the cheek. Not hard, not even hard enough to get my attention, but my eyes flew open and I gasped at him in shock.Holy shit, if he hit me a little harder, I might actually explode.

His index finger settled on my lips, his hungry gaze devouring me. “The next time you feel like running your useless little mouth,” he murmured, “I want you to shut up... and swallow. Do you understand?”

It was all I could do to nod.

He straightened, releasing me and reaching up to flick the switch on the elevator, sending it back down to the first floor.

“Go,” he said when the doors opened. I took a deep breath and forced my legs to work, exiting the elevator. As I did so, he slapped my ass once and I jumped in surprise. It wasn’t hard enough to hurt, just hard enough to surprise me and send a little jolt of pleasure between my legs.

Outside in the dining area, people quieted when they saw me.I must look like a total disaster. This is so unfair. What a jerk! And they have no idea what he did to me in there...

I heard his measured footsteps behind me, so I spat the words out. “I’m sorry for being a brat,” I said, and then whirled around and went back in the elevator to go upstairs.

A tendril of fear wormed its way into my mind as the elevator doors slid shut. What if he was a manipulative jerk? What if he was amazing but I justthoughthe was being a jerk? Could I tell if he was using me? Could I tell if I was being taken advantage of again?

Did I even fucking care?

It was hard to tell when every reaction I had felt like an overreaction, but also felt so real.

I closed my eyes in the elevator, thinking really hard about Alex.I might need your help,I thought.I don’t know what to expect. You know how my brain works, I won’t be able to set boundaries with him. I don’t know how to–

Her voice invaded my own chaotic thoughts. {“Be humble, and trust him.”}

I wasn’t sure what that was supposed to mean, but Alex was the most trustworthy person I knew. If she said I should trust him, if she believed I was safe with him, I was.

I took a steadying breath and resolved to see this through, anxiously awaiting what he had in store for me.

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