Page 15 of Who I Crave To Be

I never thought I could turn my ability to handle pain into such pussy crying pleasure.

It’s all so raw and unknown, yet I walk the roads with him as my guide and I know I’ll never be lost.

My hands are tied to the small of my back, ass in the air as he spanks me like a naughty bitch who takes whatever he hands over with a sultry smile on her lips.The sting heats my cheeks, blossoming around the globe of my ass as it forces my pussy to spasm, protesting at how empty it is.

I turn my head, peering over my shoulder as I stare at Deano watching the welts that appear on my ass with such intensity it thickens the air until I can’t breathe.It awakens something within me that I can’t explain.A need for more that I can quite put into words.Deano lifts his hand again, the black belt shining under the low lights.He flicks the ends over his shoulder and rests it there as he rubs away the soreness that settles into a sting, kneading my globes like he’ll never tire of holding them in his palm.

“What is it about you, Vienna?What is it that marks every inch of you a fantasy of perfection I never thought could be real?”He grips the curves of my hips, squeezing my fleshy sides as he groans low in the back of his throat.“Your body is made to be worshiped and loved.To be fucked like a goddess and protected like a queen.It was like you were crafted to be mine.”

I shudder, riding the sheets just to gain some kind of friction.

I’m not a skinny girl, not by the definition of the word in this day and age.I’m slender, but curvy with enough meat to be considered plush.I have stretch marks that have faded over time and tanned beneath the sun.My boobs are large and heavy, aching with need as I circle my hips begging for something more.Something thicker to fill me so completely.

“Then worship me, Deano.Take me to a place I’ve never before been,” I moan, eyeing the belt but unsure as to why.Like that somehow holds all of my answers.

“And what place would that be, Sin?”The dark curls of his hair fall, feathering across his lashes as he peers down at me.

My tummy clenches as my heart flutters, wondering how I’ll ever be able to walk away from such a devastatingly perfect sight.“Easy,”I whisper.“To a place where it all falls away.”

“Where what falls away?”My eye catches the beads of sweat glistening on his tanned skin.I lick my lip, biting into the swollen flesh as I resist the urge to taste him and wonder if the taste of whisky still lingers.

“Thought.Take me to a land where only quiet dwells, Deano.Give me nothing but you and the silence.”

“I can do that, baby,” he promises, pulling the belt from his shoulder.

He unbuckles it, unfurling the cool leather before leaning forward so he can wrap it around my throat, buckling it loosely at my nape.My body tightens, trepidation feathering down my spine as he begins to slowly tighten it, forcing the thick edges to bite into my skin.

“If it gets too much, tap me.But I’ll know.I’ll always know.Your body has a way of singing for me, pretty girl.”The low timber of his rasped words kiss against my heated skin and worried mind make me shudder.I close my eyes, letting go as I curve my back and push my ass back into him as I feel the length of his cock align with my entrance.“On the count of three, beautiful.”

In quick succession, he tears the air from my lungs, sliding the leather through the loop, and pulling it taunt as he thrusts into me without preamble, filling me to the core.As he moves, I can feel the way his velvet cock glides against the walls of my fluttering channel, pulling him in deeper as I rock backward, meeting him thrust for thrust.The pressure on my neck, has moisture pooling at my apex, seeping around him as the sensation alone drives me into insanity.It tightens still, but I refuse to tap out.It’s like the soul lifts from my body as air gathers within the very top of my head, rising from the follicles of my hair and being dispelled into the open room only to dance around me.Taunting me with how light and airy I feel.My body becomes compliant, relaxed as every instinct within me focuses on staying awake.

It doesn’t allow room for anything else.

The world falls quiet as I’m veiled in the darkness of content.I’m finally free to stop being afraid.To stop fearing my own body’s pleasure and veering off course before I allow the ecstasy to reach its peak.Instead, the choices are taken and I’m left with nothing but the push over the edge that sends me sailing towards the precipice.My orgasm washes over me until I’m left blind sighted, gasping for air as the belt falls away and everything around me swims in and out of focus.

It’s a riot within my bloodstream, a hellfire torching my soul.My entire body trembles, sated and at ease from everything else being taken away and I’ve never felt so alive.Burning with the flame that sparks the light into the universe.The burning ember that we search for in each of us but always find ourselves lacking.Deano fucked me into oblivion and now I feel like I’ve been reborn, rising in the ashes, bathed within the flames.

I was so caught up in my own pleasure I hadn’t even realized that he’d finished, until he groaned my name and fell in bed beside me, pulling my lax body into his arms.Laying here, wrapped in his firm embrace I feel a protection I’ve never before felt.This man is stealing all of my firsts and I’m over here freely giving them to him.

“You’re wild, Vienna.It burns like a wildfire within your core.You try to tame it, but that just forces it to spread in other directions.It lit up your eyes, the first time I saw you on that stage.Even surrounded by all the stage lights, it was nothing compared to the brightness of your soul that called to me.” He uses the tip of his finger to lift my chin, gazing longingly into my eyes with so much emotion, it thickens within the back of my throat.“When will the rush you’re searching for be enough?”

“When I can have both,” I whisper.“If I can’t bite into the pulse of life, knowing that just for a moment, I can feel the air filling my lungs, the tragedy of that sadness drowns me.”I stare at his chin, tracing my finger along the curve of his jaw enjoying the feeling of the stubble beneath my touch.“I just want to feel the fall that comes after I take the plunge.”

“I promised you a weekend filled with more adventure than you could ever think to crave, Vienna. I keep my promises.I’ll take you to that razor's edge, just to watch you fall, but know, I’ll be falling right behind you.”Playing with my lower lip, they part at his touch.“I’ll place you within the jaws of adrenaline just to watch it swallow you whole, but know, I’ll be its next meal.”I nibble the tip of his thumb, entranced with the words he speaks.“I’ll get you so high, that your heart will beat a rhythm so brutal within your chest, it will beg for an escape, but know, I’ll catch it when it falls.”I shudder, pressing my body into his, bathing myself in his warmth.“Then, I’ll bring you right back here and make love to you all over again.So you don’t forget, sometimes all of this…” He waves around the room, indicating to the home we are laid within.“The normal, cozy life is a rush too.I’ll catch you when you fall, baby girl, then I’ll bring you right back home again when the rush fades and the silence creeps in.I’ll hold you through it all.”

The ache in my heart burns a hole through my chest as I try to gain air into my lungs that have seized at his declaration.

Such promises uttered from a forbidden weekend.

Such longing, and I hope, he means every single word.

“Where are we going?”I ask as Deano takes a turn that leads us to a barren dirt road, luring us into the thicket of woods that engulfs us the second the Bugatti passes the first tree.

“I promised your heart would burst from your chest, correct?”He smirks, turning those eyes of sin on me as they heat me from the core and stain my cheeks pink.

"You did," I reply, entranced with how beautiful and isolated the woods can be.They tower above us, enclosing overhead like we're the world's best kept secret and I smile.

"Worried?"he taunts, rough hand squeezing my thigh in comfort.

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