Page 64 of Cognac & Cornflowers

“Yeah. I get the shot every three months and …” Her eyes grew wide, and a big smile spread across her face. “Are you saying that you don’t need that thing?”

“That depends.”

“On what?”

“On if you trust me.”

His shoulders relaxed when she laughed. “You’re kidding me, right? I’m here, aren’t I? I trust you enough that I’ll be homeless if you don’t mean what you say. I trust you enough to sleep next to you every night. I trust you enough to be the first …” She dropped her gaze and then looked up at him through her lashes. “The first guy I’ve ever … tasted like that.”

His heart clenched in his chest. He’d had no idea. He smiled and touched her arm. “And I’m grateful – for all of it.” He winked. “Especially that last part.”

She laughed. “Was I doing okay? I was worried when you wanted me to stop.”

“Jesus, Becca. I asked you to stop because you were doing so damn well that I wasn’t going to last.”

She smiled happily. “Okay. Next time you shouldn’t try to last, you should let go and I’ll figure out how that part works.”

He had to laugh. “We’ll see. But back to you trusting me. I can tell you that I get checked …” His smile faded; this wasn’t going to show him in the best light, but it had to be said. “I get checked after … whenever I’ve been seeing someone. I’m clean.”

“Oh!” Her cheeks flushed and she pressed her lips together. “Yeah. I see what you mean.” His heart sank when she shuddered and looked away.

He should have kept his mouth shut. It wasn’t as though using a condom was any great hardship, not when it meant that he got to lose himself inside her. He loved the way she felt, the way she moved with him, the way it felt like they melded into one when he let go and she came with him.

She had a pained look on her face when she met his gaze again. “Sorry. I was just thinking about Selena and what Jamie said. If you were sleeping with her and she was sleeping with him, then it’s like you could …” She stopped and shuddered again.

“Hey.” He pulled her to him so that he could close his arms around her. “I’m sorry.”

“What for?”

“That my past affected you like that. That because Selena was that way, it made that little shit Jamie think that you might be, too.”

She nodded. “You don’t have anything to apologize for. I’m just glad that you believe in condoms.”

“Yeah. I do.” He tucked his fingers under her chin and made her look at him. “But I believe in you and me more.”

She smiled and pressed a kiss to his lips. “I do, too. And I can tell you that I’ve not been with anyone else since Aiden left and we were together for four years. I almost stopped getting my shots after he left but …” She shrugged. “That felt a bit too much like admitting defeat. And I got tested for all the icky things at my last appointment. I guess my doctor is like yours; she believes that you should always get tested after a relationship ends.”

Jacob nodded. For a minute there, he’d thought that this conversation had derailed their morning. He’d lost some of his interest while they talked about their respective exes, but the possibility that she might want to …

She was smiling at him, and as she rolled the condom off, his cock pulsated with eagerness.

“So, does this little discussion mean that we’re both happy to do without the condom?”

“More than happy.”

He slid his hand between her legs and was thrilled to find her so wet for him.

She gave him a naughty little smile, apparently knowing what he was thinking. “I didn’t realize what a turn-on it would be to suck you like that.”

“Damn!” He let out a strangled little sound. “And then I stopped you and left you high and dry while we had a chat.”

She laughed. “That’s okay. Having that chat means that I get to feel you properly for the first time. I’m maybe even more turned on at the thought of that.”

Jacob sucked in a deep breath to steady himself. Then, he tightened his hands around her waist as he rolled onto his back.

Becca’s long, blonde hair closed around him like a curtain as she leaned in to kiss him. When she lifted her head, she raised an eyebrow. “I get to be in charge?”

He nodded.

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