Page 79 of The Heart of a Villain

“They say we are fools in love.

They must be right.

Because even a villain’s heart fills with hope when he falls in love.

And he searches for any reason to stop himself from destroying his princess.

Even if it means sparing the life of his enemy.”

Rush

Rush

My car flies through the gates, and I see in my rearview mirror a guard running after me before giving up and moving his arm in a “don’t bother” gesture.

I guess my twin doesn’t pay them enough to give a fuck about me.

As I press on the gas pedal, my car roars louder, announcing to all the occupants of the house my arrival, while I wonder about my own motives for coming here.

Truth be told, such a decision surprised even myself.

After ripping myself to shreds with setting Aileen free to live her life away from my nightmare, I couldn’t stay there and watch.

I wouldn’t be able to let her go if I was there, so I thought about driving around but then changed my mind and went straight to Rafael’s house, emotions consuming me in various amplitudes when all the pent-up anger pushed to the surface.

Through the duration of my life, I had to give up so many things and be deprived of a normal existence.

My dreams of becoming a lawyer—instead, I soaked in darkness.

Saving my mother from a monster—instead, I found her dead.

A normal life with my siblings—instead, we ended up all being screwed up in one way or another.

With the shitty hand fate dealt me, I learned to never dream again and just accepted the chaos it sent my way, wearing the badge of darkness proudly while indulging in my vices.

Today, though?

Today, I was reminded again of the bitter taste of hopelessness when the life you imagined having was ripped away from you.

Because for the first time in my life, I wanted to claim a woman and keep her as my own.

I wanted to believe happy endings are possible for the likes of me.

Funny thing about finally falling for a woman?

You learn to put her needs above yourself and in this understand how much your actions truly haunted her and tainted her views on men.

What chance did my girl have against my elaborate seduction, the webs I wrapped her body in before we even officially met as adults?

I taught her body to crave only me to the point of her not being able to resist me, but is that true affection?

A better man, a man I once dreamed to become, had to let her go to live a life of her dreams.

The onslaught of emotions rocks my entire system. My hands gripping the steering wheel hurt, while I trap the roar of anger wanting to erupt from me at the unfairness of it all.

Although, if there is one thing villains and monsters of this world know…

It’s that nothing in life is ever fair.

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