Page 5 of What the Heart Wants (Desires of the Heart 1)

“So, what do you think of the new secretary?” Ethan asks with a little gleam in his eyes. I know that look. I haven’t seen it since we met Bethany, but I can already tell where his head is going.

I shake my head. “Don’t even think about it. We haven’t brought a woman in since Bethany, and that’s not going to start now because some brown headed bombshell waltzed into our office,” I say instantly rejecting the idea.

Ethan looks at me with shock. “How do you even know that’s what I was thinking? Maybe I just thought she was a good fit here and not thinking she was hot, or what did you refer to her as, a ‘bombshell?’ Where did that come from, Levi?” he says with a smirk crossing his arms over his chest.

“I know you; you were thinking it. It has been a long time since we were with a woman. I don’t know if I’m ready.”

I say the last part quietly, but I know they all heard me.

I hear a sigh and know that it came from Grayson. “We all haven’t been ready but, you have to admit, she is the first woman to catch all of our interest since losing Bethany. That can’t be a coincidence. We weren’t all attracted to the same woman until Bethany came along; maybe it’s a sign. Maybe it’s time to consider bringing in what we all know is missing; something none of us could give to this relationship.”

I bring my gaze out the window. Maybe he’s right and maybe he’s not, but I can’t help but feel like I’m betraying Bethany somehow for looking at Kyla the way that I did before I could help myself. But could I really hold the guys back if they thought they were ready? Were any of us ready after the heartbreak from losing Bethany?

Chapter Three

Grayson

The first few days after we first met Kyla had flown right by. I honestly couldn’t take my eyes off of her. She was stunning. I wanted to run my hands along her curves and find out what she likes and how she wants to be touched.

She never seemed to flaunt herself or dress in a way that would scream she wanted attention. She was always dressed in a long-sleeved shirt but paired with a skirt. I hope she keeps wearing skirts every fucking day. I’ve had so many visions of those sinfully toned legs wrapped around my waist as I fucked her.

I came into the office early to work on some files before everyone else came in. We all had our separate projects. I kept myself busy until I heard Jenny and Kyla walk into the office. Jenny was on her last day before she left to have her baby. We had made sure that she was taken care of when she had the baby and didn’t have to worry about her job when she came back if she still wanted it.

“Wow, you look like you had a long night,” I hear Jenny say to Kyla. I’m not sure that they are aware that I am in the office.

I decide to wait to keep my presence noticed. I didn’t want to bother them but, if Kyla really did have a long night; I needed to know that too.

The guys and I have decided to just see where it goes, much to Levi’s protests. We had all seen the way that he looks at her. It’s not often that you would come across a woman who would want four boyfriends or lovers. Not wanting to scare her off right away, we just made a choice to see where the attraction takes us since we all are attracted to her; even if Levi wants to deny it.

We all took Bethany’s death hard, but it seemed like Levi was still struggling with the fact that she wasn’t coming back. I didn’t know what to do for him, but part of me hoped that this could help. Maybe Kyla is the light that we had been missing in our lives and the softness to our rough ways.

I love all of them the same even though they all have different personalities. Asher was more down to earth and easy going, whereas I liked to joke around. Levi was the serious one; he only let himself joke and relax around us four. Ethan was the charmer. He could get anything he wanted with that easy, sexy grin of his. He had always been a natural flirt. It was one of the things that had drawn me to him in the first place.

“Ugh, you could say that. I felt a bit sick after dinner, which lead to my parents being worried about me and checking in on me every hour last night. I felt like I would fall asleep, and they would be opening the door again,” she says in a tired voice.

“Are you okay? Do you need to go home and rest? I’m sure the guys will understand,” Jenny says with a kind voice.

“No, that’s okay. It must have been just something I ate. We went out for supper, and I guess my stomach didn’t agree with seafood. So much for trying a new thing,” she says with a little laugh, but I can tell that it’s forced.

Was there a reason she was trying a new thing?

“If it was just the seafood, then why were your parents hovering? I can’t handle it when Tristan does that. He has hovered every day since I have become pregnant,” she says with a small chuckle. I know that she loves the attention Tristan gives her.

“Oh, uh well I used to get sick a lot, so I guess that they have always been cautious about something like that. They are worried that I’ll end up in the hospital again or something. Anyway, I brought the guys coffees. They should be in soon, hey?” I hear her walking into each office, probably to place a coffee. When she makes it to mine, she lets out a shriek and spills the coffee on her.

“Fuck,” she shouts.

I can’t help but wince. Fuck that must have been hot.

“Shit, are you okay?” I ask with my face turning into a grimace.

I quickly walk over to her taking the cup and throwing it into the trash. Jenny comes running in and winces at the sight of Kyla covered in coffee.

“Kyla, oh dear. Are you okay?” she says in a sympathetic voice.

“Uh yeah. Fuck, that’s hot. I just didn’t expect anyone to be in here and BOOM here was Grayson sitting in his chair like he owned the place,” she says, and then immediately puts a hand over her face when she realises what she had just said.

I let out a chuckle and walk over to the small closet that I have. “Here. It will be big, but it will be better than walking around smelling like coffee all day; not that I would mind,” I say with a wink.

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