Page 16 of What the Heart Wants (Desires of the Heart 1)

I clutch the envelope in my hand and hold it like I do every night.

Levi, Ethan, Grayson, and Asher are four of the hottest men I have ever met. I still can’t help but wonder what they see in me? Sure, I’m not ugly, but I don’t have any experience enough to know what to do with one guy; let alone four!

I am glad for that they had said they would take it slow and at my pace. I still need to bring up the heart transplant and everything to them. I’m not sure how to. I guess it can wait for another day; it’s not like I have to jump into bed with them right away.

I message Holly, and she ends up phoning right away. I knew she would have been waiting for my message to see how it went with the men. My men. Wow that sounds weird, but I guess that’s what they are.

“Girl, you better tell me something hot happened at that dinner, or I will be extremely disappointed!” she says with so much excitement in her voice.

I can’t help but laugh. “It went surprisingly well. I still can’t believe that these four men are into me. I just don’t get how I could hold their attention; I lead a pretty boring life.”

I hear Holly scoff over the phone. “You better stop that shit right now. I will tell you this and you better open your ears and listen because I’m not repeating myself. You are an amazing woman, and they would be stupid to let you just walk away. You have so much room in your heart to let all of them in, and it sounds like they want to be there. Maybe they will help you see things about yourself that you never realised before.”

I can’t help but smile at her directness. Holly isn’t someone who is going to let me sit in my self-doubt for long. She knows I have insecurities, but I hope to break those habits.

“Well, I had talked about taking it slow, so we didn’t do much more than kiss,” I say. I can’t help the grin that comes over my face.

“Girl…” Holly says in a disappointed tone like she expected me to be giving it up after one dinner.

I can’t help but laugh. “Okay, it was hot kissing and, damn, when they kiss each other; it is just as good,” I say with a sigh.

“HOLY SHIT, GIRL! You better not be kidding me!” Holly says with a high-pitched voice.

I nod my head while laughing even though she can‘t see me.

“You better not be fucking around,” she says in a serious voice.

“I wouldn’t joke about something like that,” I say.

I spend the next couple minutes talking about the men and what a crazy change my life has become.

When I hang up the phone, I put the letter back into my purse and fall asleep with a smile on my face.

I run my fingers over my scar and tell myself that I need to pull up my big girl panties and just get it over with. I need to know how they will react about my past before I get too deep.

Chapter Eight

Kyla

I agreed to have dates with each of the men while I figure out if this is what I really want.I’m not a fool. Four hot guys are wanting to be mine and to share me with each other. Thatmakes for some serious fantasies. I like to keep an open mind. Honestly, life is too shortand that’s something that no one has to remind me of.

I just need to make sure that I’m compatible with them.

My first date is with Grayson. I have no idea where any of them are taking me. I had suggested that they show me who they truly are with these dates. They aren’t supposed to choose something that they think will impress me, but instead introduce me to something they love.

All I was told was to dress warm.I look at myself in the mirror. The first thing I notice is the excitement in my eyes.

I take a deep breath in, but there is no way that I can shake the smile from my face.

I’m wearing a pair of skinny jeans that make my butt look great with a T-shirt andlight jacket. I don’t let my mood dampen that I wish I could wear a sexier top. If I’m supposed to be warm, he’s not going to see it anyway.

I still managed to curl my hair and put some makeup on.

When I hear the doorbell, my heart beats harder against my chest.

I make my way to the door before my parents can. I don’t know how to begin explaining to them that I’m dating four men; but once I figure it out, I’ll tell them.

I open the door to a smiling Grayson. He wastes no time looking me up and down. “Wow, Kyla you look great, beautiful,” he says with a grin.

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