Page 53 of Addicted

I take her into my arms and kiss her. Fuck, I love her.

“I got a blowjob and you?”

She laughed, “Yes.”

“Best day ever,” I breathe an enormous sigh of relief.

“What did you think I was going to say?”

“You can go now. We’re done here.”

“You’re done with her, right?”

“We’ve been done for a very long time.”

“A long time?”

“We dated, kind of, for three years.”

“You love her.”

“No Stella. I don’t. I have no feelings for her.”

“Enough to have sex with her though.”

“Did you have feelings for everyone you’ve had sex with?”

“You know I didn’t.”

I have to make her see. The sun does not even shine without her. I don’t want her feeling insecure when she’s all I see.

“It was stupid, Stella. I was weak. I was broken. I would not have gone to her if I hadn’t seen Chase here.”

“Have you talked to her since?”

“No. Well, yes. I responded to one message. The others I’ve ignored.”

“What was the message?”

I run my hand through my hair. She’s not going to fucking let this go. She’s going to walk away from me. I should have just said no, but I didn’t because I can’t risk her finding out and thinking I lied to hide something.

“She asked if I wanted to fuck and I said no, that was it.”

“Ok.”

I pulled her into my arms and took her face in my hands, “Baby, it’s only you. I don’t want anyone else.”

My phone pinged, and she froze.

Releasing her from my arms, I checked my phone, “It’s Alexander. He wants to know if we are up for a double date.”

She instantly smiled, “Tell him yes.”

“Are you going to let me buy you a drink?”

“I’ll think about it.”

“The night I met you, I knew there was something different about you. When you wouldn’t let me buy you a drink, I was confused. I wasn’t used to women telling me no. It made me want you even more. The next day when I saw your reaction when I whispered in your ear… I wanted to fuck you in that elevator.”

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