Page 72 of Let Me Love You (Excess All Areas 5)

“About that thing we talked about before dinner.” His voice had gone deep. Husky, even. And, fuck, they needed to leave the restaurant.

“Ben?”

“Yeah, babe?”

“Can we go?”

Ben grinned. “With pleasure.”

Ben led her to their hotel room, her hand secured in his.

He’d held her hand before.Manytimes before. But his confidence, the sure stride, the strong forearm with the veins that ran down into his hands were all hers. For her. Protecting her.

She no longer had to bank the way she felt for him.

Wasn’t this the moment she’d dreamed about her entire life?

But suddenly, she was…nervous.

Because she’d wondered about how perfect it would be for so long, she wondered if their first night together could ever live up to it.

Ben slipped the key card from the pocket of his suit and opened the door. Once inside, he suddenly stopped and turned to face her, stroking a finger down her cheek gently.

“You’re nervous,” he said softly.

“You can tell?”

He smiled at her. “You stop talking completely when you are. If you’re a little bit nervous, you speed up talking, filling the silence. But when you’re really nervous, you go quiet. Your hand got sweaty as soon as we left the restaurant.”

“It did?” She wiped her palms on the sides of her dress. “I’m sorry, I—”

“It’s just me, Chay. And it’s just us.” He took both of her hands, and pressed her palms to his chest, holding her wrists loosely. “We don’t have to make it any more complicated than that. What’s going on?”

“What if it’s anticlimactic? I’ve thought about what this would be like for so long. I’m worried I set this unreachable bar.”

Ben grinned. “It’s you and me. How could it be anticlimactic? It’s enough just being here with you. If you let me kiss you again, it will be even better. We have sex, it’s the icing on the cake.”

“But what if the sum of us isn’t what we expected?”

Ben leaned forward and kissed her lips, softly, without heat. Nothing pressuring or forcing. “You know what? Sex in those books Zoe writes those series bibles for, it’s instantaneous. Usually, the most perfect mind-blowing sex in the world with minimal effort. But there’s one thing I agree with my brother on. Great sex takes effort, communication, patience, and taking the time to learn what each other wants and needs. It means not being embarrassed to ask for what you want. And sometimes, it’s just going for it, banging one out because that’s what you feel like and need in the moment. Sometimes it’s just about you. Sometimes it’s just about me. Sometimes we hit it together. Sometimes one of us doesn’t. And all of it will be fucking awesome.”

Chaya looked down at their hands and sighed.

“Babe. Look up at me for a second. Tell me one thing you love when you’re naked with a guy.”

“You want me to tell you about sex with other guys?”

Ben shook his head. “No. I don’t want to hear that shit at all. But what I do want to hear is what you learned about yourself and your body from having sex in the past. I know you aren’t a virgin, and we all have pasts. So, what do you know about yourself?”

“You’re serious?”

He led them to the sofa, and sat down, tugging her with him until she straddled his thighs. “I’m serious. Want me to go first?”

“Yes. Please.”

Ben placed his arms wide over the back of the sofa. “I fucking love it when a hand job involves a bit of a twist of the palm. If I don’t want to come too quickly, I need to keep my head as far away from the entrance as possible because it gets way too much stimulation that way. My go-to fast fuck is from behind because there’s something about seeing my dick in action that gets me off every time.”

He kept his eyes on her as he spoke, his words turning her on as she visualised all of it. She could feel him getting hard, his erection pressing against the thin fabric of her dress.

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