Page 34 of Diary of Darkness

There’s an awkward pause. The only sound in the room is the fire crackling in the hearth. Discreetly, my gaze travels over her body, absorbing every delectable curvature.Fuck, I need to touch her so badly.

At that moment, Mrs Bullivant returns and places an ornamental tray of drinks on the cabinet. Turning to face me, she bows her head slightly in reverence. “If that will be all, sir, then I’ll bid you goodnight.”

“Thank you, Mrs Bullivant. Yes, that will be all. Let Hobbs know the two of you can both retire early tonight. Your services will not be required.”

“Very good, sir. Goodnight.” As always, our housekeeper makes very little eye contact with me and almost acts as if Jessica is not here.Good.I have trained her well. Over the years, this once boisterous and outgoing old lady has learnt to mind her own business. It took a while but eventually she got with the programme. She knows my house rules are ‘hear no evil, see no evil’ and she would do well to abide by them, if she wants to keep her job and the cosy home that comes with it.

Once she’s gone and we are alone again, I get up and walk across to the cabinet and pour us both a drink. After handing her a glass, I return to my chair and decide to cut to the chase. “So, tell me, Jessica, what brings you here tonight?”

She takes a large gulp of wine. “I thought you knew? Didn’t the agency tell you?”

“Yes, they gave my mother some inane spiel about you changing your mind and wanting a second chance. But I want to hear it from you. Why did you come back really? I know damn well it was not for love of me.”

Jessica licks her lips and looks so lovely I forget to breathe. “I, that is…I came here to make a deal with you.”

“That’s more like it. Now we are finally getting somewhere.” I drink deeply from my wineglass and watch her intently over the rim. “I’m all ears. Tell me what it is that you want.”

“I came to ask if you could please loan me the other £25,000. You see, the thing is Alex…” She breaks off. Scratches the side of her neck. The next few sentences come out in a rush. “Okay, it’s like this. My mother is sick. She has cancer and the doctors have said there’s nothing more they can do for her. Well, not in this country anyway. And there’s this really great clinic in Germany that we think could help her, but it’s going to cost £50,000.”

There’s a long, dark silence. Her bottom lip trembles. I am moved beyond words and long to take her in my arms and kiss her. Jesus, I had no idea. Now so many things are beginning to fall into place…

“I am so sorry to hear about your mother,” I say softly. “It must be so hard for you and your brother, but especially you. As the eldest, I imagine you’ve probably taken a lot onto your shoulders to help support your mum.”

“Yes…yes, I have.” She takes another swig and then puts down her glass. “But the thing is, Alex, I want you to know that this whole being an escort thing just really isn’t me. You know, I only did it because I was desperate. Under normal circumstances, I would never have considered doing anything like this. I tried so hard to find other ways of raising the money. Up until recently, I worked two jobs, tried to save every penny I could lay my hands on, but it was taking too long. I did everything I could to raise funds legitimately and joining the escort agency was a last resort. Before I knew it, I was in way over my head.” She wipes her nose with her forearm, momentarily lifting her T-shirt and giving me a tantalising glimpse of her beautifully toned stomach and belly button piercing.Goddamn.I want her so badly my bones ache.

“Take your time,” I soothe, trying my best to think pure thoughts. “Take as long as you need.”

“Thank you,” she replies, smiling slightly. “I appreciate it.” After a minute, she has composed herself enough to continue. “Alex, look. If you loan me the money, I promise to pay you back every single penny. Even if it takes years, I am happy to set up a monthly installment plan, whatever works for you. But I really need this money now, you know? I love my mum so much and I’ll do anything for her. Time is of the essence, and I can’t afford to delay getting her treatment any longer. That’s why I’ve come to you today to ask for your help.”

For a long time, I don’t say anything. I just sit in the armchair, staring at her, my mind ticking over the possibilities. Of course, I want to help my beauty. I am appalled to hear what she and her family have been going through and I want her mother to get well again. Without doubt, I will do everything in my power to see to it that Cynthia gets all the help she needs and pray that the treatment in Germany is a success. After all, I want Jessica to be happy. Only a cold-hearted bastard would wish for anything else. However, when it comes to the loan she has asked for, I find myself in something of a dilemma.

Part of me wants to be good and give Jessica all the money with no strings attached. That would be the right and honourable thing to do. But the darkness in me badly wants to throw her down on the bed and break in that sweet, tight virgin pussy. My desire for her is all consuming and I’m fighting a losing battle with the demon within. It’s like I’m burning up with a fever and the only cure is to ravage every single inch of her. I simply cannot allow her to leave this house without at least getting a taste.

“I will give you all the money, no problem,” I say. “And you don’t have to pay me back a penny. I will gift you the whole £25,000. I’ll even throw in a first-class plane ticket to Germany for your mother and pay for her to stay at a five-star hotel for the entire duration of her treatment.”

For the first time since she arrived, Jessica forces herself to look at me. Every part of her body trembles but I commend her bravery. “Are you serious? Would you really do that?”

“Yes. I can have the money deposited to your bank account first thing tomorrow morning.”

“Oh my gosh, thank you! I-I can’t believe it. I don’t know what to say…”

“Now will you be nice to me?”

“Sure, I can be nice to you.”

“Good. Then let me go down on you.”

Jessica freezes. “W-what?”

“Ever since we met, licking your pussy is all I can think about. You’ve got to let me do it.”

“No, you cannot be serious!”

“I am deadly serious.”

“And if I refuse? What then? You won’t give me the money?”

“Of course I’ll still give you the money. Come on, I’m not heartless. I want to help your mother in any way I can. Jessica, you know how much I like you and I want you to know that you can always come to me for help. I don’t want this to seem like blackmail but…” I hesitate. “I just need to taste you. I need it and I need itnow.”

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