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Chapter 19

Gavin

Everythingcomesbackto me when the sound of construction outside wakes me. Lauren is in my arms, and our talk from earlier fills my head. As scared as I am to have the surgery, knowing she'll be with me makes it much easier.

Lauren starts to stir. I could sit here and hold her all day if she’d let me, but she has to take care of Graham.

"How long were we asleep?" I ask.

Her weight shifts, and I assume she’s looking at her phone.

"Just over an hour." She rolls over and gets comfortable on my shoulder again.

I hold her close because I'm not ready to let her go yet. Her lips find mine in a lazy kiss as if we have all the time in the world. It’s as if she’s finally accepting everything I’ve been trying to tell her. This kiss says, “I love you” and “I'm not going anywhere.”

My body craves her more than my next breath, but neither of us tries to take it any further. I want to show her with my body how much I love her, but I need something else first. The first time we made love since finding each other again, I’ve been craving her whenever we’re in the same space. But what I want to do is so much more than that.

"Come to Baltimore with me, my sweet girl. Please," I whisper against her lips.

"Yes, I will. You’ll need to wait a few weeks, though. I promised Lexi I would help Mandy while she’s on maternity leave. Mandy, Paisley, and I will take over running Oakside so Lexi and Noah can have some time to themselves after the birth. Right after that, summer break begins for Graham, so he can come with us."

An image of a little family vacation fills my head. How different things would be if I hadn't run.

Once again, the noise from the construction outside catches my attention. "What's going on out there?"

"They’re breaking ground on the Aquatic Center. It's going to have various water therapies, a pool, sauna, and hot tubs, all centered on strengthening muscles. Also, for relaxation and to give our patients an incentive or goal. It'll be a separate building past the tree line. While it won’t be in sight of this building, it’ll only be a few minutes’ walk."

"Sounds expensive," I say without thinking.

Lauren chuckles. "Oh, it is. But they had a rather large donation from the band Highway 55 a few months back. This was the first thing everyone agreed on since the barn has now been fixed up. It's going to be a few months of construction, but they're keeping it to daytime hours."

She snuggles close, and we lie there, knowing we have to get up and start moving soon. Yet neither one of us wants to give up our little bubble. Even with the construction noise, it’s like our safe little haven.

A part of our conversation from earlier comes to mind, and I want to make sure to address it."To answer your question from earlier, there’s no circumstance where I wouldn't want you. I need you to know that. I'm sure you’ve only gotten sexier." I run my hand up her side over her hips to her breasts."Because, fuck, you feel sexier," I whisper as I cup her breasts, making her moan.

It wouldn't matter if she’d gained two hundred pounds, chopped all her hair off, or been injured and scarred. I fell in love with her as a person, and my soul is connected to hers.

"Go close and lock the door, baby." I kiss her forehead before letting her go take care of the door. I should wait until we get to her place and after Graham is asleep for the night, but I can't wait that long. I need her to know right now that I mean what I say.

When she crawls back into bed, I pull her to me, gripping her hips and positioning her to straddle me. I want her in control this time and to feel what she does to me.“I've often thought about how you look with your head thrown back, lost in pleasure, riding my cock. Still do."

Gliding my hands up her sides, I remember the last time she was astride me like this. Fuck, to be able to see that again. That's worth a year of surgery every single day. My thumbs rub over her breasts, and I can feel her hard nipples under her shirt.

Wanting her bare, I get her shirt and bra off so I can enjoy her smooth skin as I reach her breasts. I love how those beautifully round mounds fill my hands. I sweep my thumbs over her hard nipples before pinching them, gratified to hear her gasp. Not stopping, I move my hands down over her stomach, stopping short of her panties.

I want her to be as crazy for me as I am for her. The memory of the last time she rode me like this is almost enough as my hands grip her hips, giving life to my vision.

"We have to be quick. I need to go get Graham soon," she says, breathing hard.

"You might be a little late because I’m not rushing with you. I have rules, and the biggest one is you always come first and always more times than me. Now, baby, let’s get naked so we can start."

Fortunately, I have a few condoms stashed in my nightstand, hoping for a moment like this. Grabbing one, I roll the condom on so I don't have to try to find it later.

I flip Lauren onto her back and kiss my way down her gorgeous body, tasting every inch of her smooth skin. I want her taste still on my tongue when I go to dinner tonight.

Taking my time, I get into position and find her already wet for me. I love how easily I turn her on because sometimes, just a whiff of her perfume in the room is enough to get me hard. It's always been that way with us. The closer we got, the more our bodies craved each other.

I only wish I had more time to savor her, tease her, and drive her crazy, but we don't, so I dive right in and suck on her clit. Her hips buck, and she covers her face with my pillow to stifle a moan.

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