Page 56 of Resisting Fate (Hope Falls: Brewed Awakenings 3)

“No. It’s not that.” He shifted his hips up and pressed his shaft against her still wet sex. When she felt the evidence of his arousal her eyes widened. “We can’t because I don’t have a condom.”

“Oh.” She stared at him blankly for a few beats before saying. “Um, I’ve been on the pill since I was fourteen, so…”

“You have?” Josh didn’t mean to sound surprised.

She nodded. “My mom put me on it when I started dating Chris, and I knew I never wanted to have kids so I just stayed on it. You know, just in case.”

Even though Josh couldn’t get anyone pregnant, he’d still never had unprotected sex in his life just because he didn’t want an STD. The thought of being inside Audrey without any barriers between them made his balls tingle and his dick pulse with anticipation. His hips began to move of their own accord, and he was sliding the girth of his shaft along her damp folds.

“Are you sure you want to do this without protection?” he asked, just to double check.

She nodded as she bit down on her bottom lip. He sensed some hesitation in her response. “What? What is it?”

“Before we…can I just…look at you? Touch you?”

Fuck. This girl was going to kill him. First, she stripped down naked in front of him, then she said she wanted to have sex without a condom, and now she was asking to touch him.

He nodded, not trusting himself to speak and he rolled over onto his back. She spread her hands on his chest, the light touch of her fingertips. She roamed his body with what started as tentative grazes but soon turned bolder. His dick was throbbing painfully as her touch caressed him and his jaw tensed as he allowed her to explore him.

It was its own special brand of torture lying there and being a passive participant. But this is what she wanted. And Josh wanted to give her exactly what she wanted.

Her hands moved over his thighs and back up again to his stomach, chest, and arms. He watched her as she physically and visually explored him. There was something so sweet, so innocent about her tour of his anatomy. He’d never been with someone with so little experience and it was fucking endearing.

When she closed her fingers around his dick, he felt himself surge with arousal. When she started to move her hand, it was more than he could take. He was in the danger zone. One pump, and he would come all over himself. He grabbed her wrist and pulled it up as he shifted so that he was on top of her again.

Her eyes were wide. “Did that hurt?”

“No, it felt good. Too good.”

“Oh,” a small, satisfied smile pulled on her lips.

He moved his hand between their bodies and brushed his fingers along her seam to make sure that she was still ready. His fingers glided easily along her arousal and he lined his body up with hers.

“Are you sure?” he asked.

She nodded as she panted out her answer. “Yes. So sure.”

He pushed past the resistance of her fleshy opening, and he felt her body stretch to its limit to accommodate him.

Her eyes widened slightly at the intrusion, and he stilled. “Do you want me to stop?”

“No,” she breathed as she lifted her hips up. “Don’t stop.”

Josh closed his eyes and tried to think of anything other than how good Audrey’s body felt clamping down around him as he sank fully into her. He’d been so scared that he wouldn’t be able to perform at all and now he was scared that this was going to be over before it even started if he so much as breathed. That was how fucking good she felt.

So many factors were conspiring to bring his crescendo to a premature finish. Between how tight her body was, how long it had been since he’d had sex, the fact that he’d never been inside anyone without protection, the knowledge that he was her first, and the fact that this was Audrey, the woman he loved and he was fighting an uphill battle not to erupt.

Beads of sweat formed on the back of his neck as he tried to get his body under control.

“This feels so good. You feel so good.”

He eased out of her slowly but as he entered her again, her body closed around him like a vice, and something took over him and he sank into her with more force than he had the first time.

She gasped at the intrusion and her back arched up as she clung to his back.

He froze, scared it had been too much.

“Are you okay? Do you want to stop?” he asked again.

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