Page 100 of Force of Nature

Chapter Thirty-seven

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“I’m sorry. I’m goingto need you to repeat that again,” I say, looking at the doctor like she has five heads and is speaking a completely different language.

“You’re pregnant,” she repeats, the words no easier to hear the second time around.

“But how?” I ask, more to myself.

“Well you see...” she starts and I instantly hold my hand up to stop her, not in the mood for what I’m sure was about to be a joke of some sort.

“I knowhow.” I shake my head. “I just don’t understand how. I’m on the pill. I’ve never missed a day,” I say, tears filling my eyes as the reality starts to set in.

“No birth control is a hundred percent effective.”

“But I’ve had periods.”

“Also completely possible.”

“I’ve had no symptoms,” I continue to object, convinced they must have it wrong.

“Some women don’t,” she calmly explains. “Based on your ultrasound I would put you right around nine to ten weeks so while you’re body is changing, it’s not significant enough that you would notice unless you were paying attention. I will tell you that everything looks to be progressing normally which is a good sign. We’ll need to get you started on some prenatal vitamins and there are brochures I can send home with you to help educate you on what’s to come as the weeks progress.”

“But why did I faint?” I ask, realizing she never actually touched on what landed me here in the first place.

“It’s actually more common during pregnancy than you might think. It’s likely your blood pressure dropped too low causing you to temporarily lose consciousness.”

“I’m pregnant.” I press my head back into the pillow and stare at the cream colored hospital wall in front of me.

A million things run through my mind.

My job...

How in the hell I’m going to pull this off? Not only does Roseneverget pregnant in the book, but I can’t even wrap my head around our crazy filming schedule while having a baby to care for. Hell, I can barely even care for myself some days.

My family...

I can already see the disappointment on my parents’ faces. Their only daughter getting knocked up by an ex-drug addict that she’s not married to let alone dating. God, even I’m ashamed.

And then there’s Thad. Just the thought of telling him causes my stomach to roll and for a moment I wonder if I’m going to be sick.

I can’t raise a child with a man like Thad. It has nothing to do with the drug addiction and everything to do with the fact that he’s unreliable and unpredictable and that is no life for a child.

“I’ll give you some time to process the news. I’ll be back in a little bit,” the doctor interrupts my thoughts, waiting until I nod before slowly backing out of the room.

The instant the door snaps shut behind her the tears begin to pour.

How could I have gotten myself into such a mess? I knew Thad wasn’t wearing a condom the last time we were together, yet I did nothing to stop him. I thought we would be fine and honestly it all happened so fast I didn’t really have that much time to think about it.

Now I’m wishing like hell I could go back and do it all over again. If I could I wouldn’t even have slept with him to begin with.

I once wondered how one person could change my life so much in such a short time. Now I wonder how long it will take for me to piece my life back together after having him rip through it like a tornado. Honestly I’m not sure if that’s even possible anymore.

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“You sure you don’tneed anything before we go?” Whit is standing in the doorway of my living room, a suitcase at her feet, while Chris is lounging in the chair next to me.

“I’m sure,” I tell her for the hundredth time.

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