Page 70 of Knot All Is Lost: Part 1

“That’s not a full knot, I can take him. I just need you to help me,” I explained.

Bodhi didn’t seem convinced but he trusted me as I lifted up and when I dropped down I relaxed and let Bodhi’s added force pop me right past that half mast of a knot. Oscar made a strangled sound as he curled around my body thrusting his cock into me as his knot swelled to full size officially locking me to him and his cum filled me.

I smiled as Oscar purred and held me tucked against his chest, his face hidden in my hair as he kissed my neck lovingly. Relaxing in his arms I rested my head on his shoulder as we enjoyed our bodies holding each other.

“Holy shit,” Bodhi swore. “I thought he was going to tear me apart and it wasn’t even the full thing!?”

Spencer patted him on the shoulder. “If you want to take your Alpha’s knot that’s going to take a lot of work and I myself didn’t really enjoy it. You might but that’s going to take some practice and effort on each of your parts. Unlike an Omega we aren’t naturally that… stretchy.”

“Yeah, I think we might keep it simple for a bit, that was fucking amazing and totally overstimulating at the same time. I’m not sure I could handle more just yet,” Bodhi shared, rubbing the back of his neck like he was embarrassed. “So I got distracted before but did Cambi eat her grilled cheese?”

“It took me and Marius hand feeding her but yeah she ate it,” Spencer shared leaning back against the padded bench at the foot of the bed. “I got to say, you two were made for each other. I’ve never seen two people fit together like you and Oscar did just now.”

Bodhi looked at Oscar who’d lifted his head at Spencer’s comment. Bodhi had a sappy smile on his face as he ran his hands through his hair. “Yeah, it makes me kind of pissed that I didn't make a move sooner. If I knew it would be like that I would have risked it the moment I knew I had feelings for him. Guess the cat’s out of the bag now.”

“Dude, that cat’s out of the bag, adopted, and purring in someone's lap already. Next time I tell you that two people need to be together, don't doubt me,” he boasted, lacing his fingers behind his head.

“Is there someone else you think is harboring hidden feelings for another one of our pack members?” Marius asked, ruffling Spencer’s hair.

All eyes turned to Rafael who was getting up from the bed making him pause as he looked at us. “Oh no, you guys are great but the only person I want to love and hold for the rest of my life is my Little One,” he shared as he walked to me.

He squatted and tucked my hair behind my ear as he stared deeply into my eyes. “Now that I’ve had you, there will never be another who could compare. You, my Little One, are everything I’ve ever wanted or needed, it seems the universe knew I needed to experience some life before I could love you properly.”

My cheeks exploded with heat as his words melted my heart. This man and all the others of this pack were going to ruin me to the point I wouldn't be able to survive without them. Rafael reached for me and I went to him willingly knowing that Oscar’s knot had subsided enough to release me. Wrapping my arms around his neck I peppered his face with kisses as he carried me into the bathroom.

“Bless you, I would love to take a shower,” I sighed as he turned on the water.

I thought he’d set me down so I could clean up but that was not at all what he had planned for us. Without releasing me he stepped into the shower protecting me from the water as it fell from the middle of the ceiling. Gently he settled me on the tiled bench of the gigantic shower, grabbed a few things from the rack in the corner, then returned.

Tilting my head I watched as he wet the washcloth and ran it over my skin, soap sudsing up as it moved. “You know I could do this myself,” I commented.

“I’m aware,” was his cryptic answer. “It’s clear that your heat has broken after three days but I’m not ready to give up keeping you close… and naked,” he admitted. “All I want right now is to take care of you. We used and abused your body even though you loved it but right now I need to make sure you’re alright.”

“Rafael, thank you for always making me feel so cherished,” I whispered, dropping my eyes to watch his hands working over my body washing every inch of my skin.

He paused and squatted in front of me so I was once more looking into his blue-gray eyes. “Cambrie, you are the most enchanting woman I’ve ever met and I had no idea I could fall this hard and fast in love with someone. You’ve stolen my heart so how else could I treat the woman I want to spend the rest of my life treasuring?”

Blinking at his words, one just kept replaying over and over in my brain. “You… you love me?”

“You must have been lost during your heat because I’m pretty sure I’ve said it before,” Rafael chuckled as he caught my lips with his in a tender kiss. “Unless I’ve just been saying it in my head as I treasure each moment with you… but now you know.”

Unable to do anything but sit there in wonder I let him wash me from head to toe feeling more lightheaded than I did through my whole heat. When Rafael pulled me to my feet and led me under the water I closed my eyes and let it wash over me. Here I was after my first heat with one of my Alphas that loved me—Cambrie—the girl who’d been told all her life she was useless, good for nothing, and a waste of space. Not to them, not to this pack, I was a woman who was loved and valued not for what I could give them but just for being me. Tears trailed down my cheeks, mixing with the water, but they didn’t go unnoticed by Rafael.

“Little One, did I get shampoo in your eyes?” he asked. “I’m sorry, this is the first time I’ve done this for anyone.”

I shook my head as I smiled at him. “No it’s not that, I just never thought this would happen to me. No one, since my mother died, has ever told me they love me and it really hit me that I might love you too, or at least I think I do… I’m not really sure what that feels like to be honest,” I trailed off realizing I was rambling.

Rafael swooped me up and I reflexively wrapped my arms and legs around him. Slowly he settled me down over his cock filling me slowly as I sighed nuzzling my face into his neck nipping where I could feel his pulse.

“Little One, you make it so hard for me to be good and do this the right way. There isn’t anything more in the world right now that I want to do but mark you as mine, put a baby in that belly, and grow our perfect family together,” Rafael whispered in my ear as he just held me, the two of us connected as closely as humanly possible.

The sound of having a child made me squirm a little at the thought. One day I might want that but not yet, I hadn't grown enough myself to be any sort of mother to a baby even if I did have a pack of men that would be amazing fathers.

Gasping I clung to him tighter as he slowly moved, pumping in and out of me agonizingly slow as we clung to each other. Surprisingly neither one of us lasted long, already bubbling over with emotions. He didn’t knot me this time, making my face scrunch up as I looked at him. “Be calm Little One, the point of the shower was to get you cleaned up. After hearing you say you love me I couldn’t not bury my cock in you, but now it’s time for you to rest. I can feel your body growing tired after all it’s been through these past few days.”

“I guess that makes sense,” I said, pouting at not getting that feeling I’ve now come to crave.

Maybe Spencer was right, after this, I don’t know if I’ll be able to go a day without one of them knotting me. Somehow I’d turned into this wanton needy Omega whose body yearned for her men because it wasn’t just the Alphas my body cried out for.

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