Page 68 of Knot All Is Lost: Part 1

“That doesn’t make sense to me,” I argued. “If he cares he would be here with me during my first heat.”

“Little One, do you know what it’s like when an Alpha goes into rut?” Rafael asked, running a hand down my back.

I peered over my shoulder remembering what Bodhi told me. “They get sex crazy.”

“That is part of it but they become possessive, out of control, and in some cases, they can harm their own pack in the desperate need to keep the Omega to themselves,” Rafael expounded. “Nixon is fighting falling into rut, and he tends to be a little more assertive when it comes to sex. He is incredibly worried that if he were to be that way with you it would scare you or he might hurt you when that’s the last thing he wants.”

“So he’s staying away to keep me safe?” I questioned, thinking it still seemed backward to what I’d think he should do.

Rafael nodded. “Nixon is doing this to keep us all safe. He wouldn’t like all of us touching you, holding you, or fucking you while he’s in that state. Rut brings an Alpha to their baser logic, where need trumps all other rational thinking. It could also lead to him marking you when that wouldn’t be the best approach right now.”

I let out a heavy sigh, accepting that I was going to have to deal with things as they were. Marius’s knot relaxed enough for me to roll onto my stomach and curl around a pillow. My stomach grumbled again but the sound of the bedroom door opening alerted me that a grilled cheese might be close at hand. Sitting up as quickly as I could I spotted Bodhi walking over in just his boxers. His lean muscled chest made my mouth water at the idea of licking every dip and ridge. As if sensing my attention, his gaze met mine, and it brought him to a screeching halt.

“Cambi, you can’t look at me like that right now,” Bodhi warned, his tone husky. “There needs to be a break long enough for you to eat this, and right now I’m not sure I have the strength to say no.”

Oscar slid off the bed and approached Bodhi, took the plate, then handed it to me, kissing me on the forehead as I took it. The smell of the sandwich held my full attention as I snatched up one half and promptly bit into it. Humming I did a little happy dance as the cheese melted on my tongue. This simply had to be the best food in existence.

Opening my eyes I nearly choked on my food as I found Oscar on his knees pulling Bodhi’s cock out of his boxers and licking it from balls to tip.

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