Page 62 of Knot All Is Lost: Part 1

twenty-six

Iwassohot, everything inside me was burning up, and I felt itchy. No, that wasn’t the right word… tingly? Whatever this feeling was I knew I needed something to make it stop but I didn’t know what that was. Spencer had tried to explain this to me but I wasn’t truly able to understand what he was saying. My mind felt like it was in a fog, nothing seemed to make sense but for the feeling of need.

“I’ve got you, Princess,” Marius whispered as I let out a whine. “Just hang in there a little longer, we need to get you to my bedroom. Spencer, run down to the kitchen and grab anything you think we’ll need for the rest of the night. We have no idea how intense this is going to be.”

Everything about Marius smelled so good I just wanted to get lost in his scent. I wonder if he tastes as yummy as he smells? Marius snarled the moment my tongue met his flesh as I dragged it along his collarbone that was peeking out from his shirt.

“Princess, you need to behave, or I’m going to lose what little control I have and fuck you right here in this hallway,” he bit out, his arms tightening around me. “I want this experience to be perfect for us, not all of us losing our minds and ravaging you,” Marius added as he shoved open the door to his room.

His scent was everywhere. The heady aroma of bergamot with the bite of clove enveloped me, making me squirm. Everything about this space screamed Alpha and that was what I needed desperately. I was lucky enough to have a pack with four Alphas, all with glorious knots to fill me. Just the thought of it had me gushing between my legs. I’d thought I was leaking badly before now I was sure I’d soaked through the pants I was wearing.

Marius deposited me on the bench at the end of the bed, and started yanking off pillows, pulled back the sheets, and turned on the bedside lamps filling the room with a soft warm light. He knelt before me, holding my face in his hands as he tried to get my attention. “Princess?”

“Yes, Alpha?” I murmured, trying to focus my eyes.

“Cambrie, I need you to try and hear me, alright? When I ask this question there is no judgment at all. I just need to understand what you might have experienced before coming to us,” Marius said, his eyes intense. “Have you ever had anyone touch you in an intimate way before? Under clothes, over clothes, kisses?”

I shook my head and pointed a finger at Oscar. “He was my first kiss, and it was amazing.”

Nixon swore and turned away from me. “Fuck, it’s like she’s drunk. How is this okay? She doesn’t really know what we are asking or understand what she’s giving consent to. This is a bad idea. I shouldn’t be here for this.”

Panic shot through me at the thought of Nixon leaving me. “No!” I lunged forward, trying to get past Marius. “Don’t, please don’t leave me. I want to be your Omega, to live with this pack. You can’t leave me. I have nothing else but you in this whole world.” The last bit came out as a desperate sob but I couldn’t let him leave.

Something inside me was breaking at the thought of him not wanting to be here for this. That I wasn’t good enough, or I didn’t please him in some way tore me apart. Whimpering whines poured out of me making everyone in the room take a step closer. Everyone but Nixon.

“Shh, Princess,” Marius soothed, pulling me to his chest. “It’s going to be alright, we can’t force someone to join in this if they aren’t ready. I know you can’t understand this right now but this is a massive step for us as a pack. Even though we won’t be claiming you with a bite during this, it’s almost the same thing. We haven’t been together long and everyone is ready to commit at their own pace, so if Nixon needs time, we will give him that.”

I hiccupped a sob or two as I nodded my understanding. Then out of nowhere, I got slammed with a stabbing pain that tore up my spine, starting in my low back and making me scream.

“Enough of this. We need to help her,” Rafael ordered. “Those who are going to stay, stay. Anyone else get the hell out and let us help our Omega through her first heat.”

There was a flurry of movements as my shirt was pulled over my head and pants slipped off my legs. I should have felt embarrassed but right now I didn’t give a rat’s ass I was naked as long as they were going to help me. Rafael, who was shirtless, scooped me up and carried me to the side of the bed, where he sat and settled me deeper on the mattress. I reached out a hand and let it drift through the curls of salt and pepper hair on his chest that led down to a V on his stomach as it lightened.

That was when I realized he wasn’t wearing any pants either. There resting between his legs was a penis, a real live penis just sitting there hard, red, and apparently jumping for joy at my attention. I was so incredibly curious I reached out a finger and brushed it from tip to base.

“Little One, be careful what you touch,” Rafael warned. “Your Alphas are trying incredibly hard to be good, but if you do things like that, we might not be able to.”

My whole body shivered at the growl in his voice as he spoke but I didn’t remove my hand. Instead, I wrapped all my fingers around it, or as much as I could, feeling the pulse moving through it. My actions were brought to a screeching halt as a hand drifted across my naked stomach traveling up toward my breasts. Snapping my head to the left I found Oscar’s ocean colored eyes watching me with heat, and yet vulnerable as if he wasn’t sure his touch was welcome.

Removing my hand from Rafael I placed it over Oscar’s and moved it so he was over the small mound of flesh that made up my breast. “It’s okay, I want this,” I whispered as his thumb drifted over my nipple, making me gasp.

Rafael’s hand rested on my stomach, and he ran his fingers from my belly button down to the crest of my mound between my legs. Then he’d stop, then drifted back up, repeating this over and over again until I instinctively shifted my legs apart. I needed him to get closer to where I craved to be touched, but I wasn’t brave enough to ask. Oscar’s attention on my breasts had my breath catching as he let his fingers wander in patterns around one nipple then over to the other until both were peaked, begging to be touched.

Oscar shifted closer and started to kiss up my neck starting at my collarbone. His lips were so soft, followed by little nips that had me letting out whimpers and I wriggled under the attention. When he finally reached my mouth, he cupped my cheek, and our lips met just as Rafael finally slid his fingers between my legs. I cried out at the shockwave of pleasure, unlike anything I’d felt before, flowed through my body. It was almost as if every nerve ending in my whole body was being stroked, and it was amazing.

A finger circles what I knew to be the clit but he didn’t touch it full-on like he had a second ago. My hips started to shift chasing after him, begging with a whine for him to make that feeling happen in me again.

Then he did.

If Oscar had not been holding my head and his upper body resting on me holding me down I would have sat straight up.

“Did that feel good, Little One?” Rafael asked, his gruff voice sounded so sexy to my ear. I wanted to hear him talk more.

Oscar released my lips to let me respond as he worked back down my neck. “Yes Alpha, may I please have some more?” I pleaded, hoping his answer would be yes.

“What would you like me to do more of?” Rafael asked, holding my gaze with his knowing eyes. I didn’t want to say. “Through this heat you’re going to need to tell us what your body is demanding, or we won’t be able to help you the best way we can.”

“I need more,” I begged. “Please touch me between my legs and my breasts, my body wants to be wanted by you.”

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