Page 61 of Knot All Is Lost: Part 1

Why did it have to be sex? Not that I didn’t want Cambrie in that way more than the breath in my lungs but was she ready for that step? Were we ready for that?

The chances of making it through a heat without any of us marking her were going to be slim. Nixon had been fighting off rut, and so had Rafael. If what I knew was correct, I didn’t think I was that far off myself with how obsessive I’d been about her. This heat might just throw everyone into a mess of sex-drugged animals.

“Rafael, is Savo mad at me?” Cambrie asked, her body shaking slightly as the need started to grow within her.

“No Little One, he is not mad at you,” he assured her, then turned her to face him. “Do you have any idea what it is that is happening to you right now?”

She shook her head, tears glistening in her eyes. “Am I dying? I feel like I’m going to burn up from the inside out, and I ache between my legs like if I don’t get something to put there, I’m going to die.”

“My room,” Marius instructed. “I have the biggest bed and room to deal with this. The master bathroom will be nice too, I’m sure, when we need a break.”

“Are we really doing this?” Nixon asked, stunned. “No one’s even told her what’s happening, I’m not doing anything until she understands what it means. Once I go there with her, I can’t go back if she changes her mind. It would ruin me.”

“Someone needs to tell her. Leaving her in the dark is a stupid idea,” I agreed.

Spencer pulled Cambrie from Rafael who was reluctant to give her up and sat on the end of the bed together. “Dove, you’re going into heat, or by the looks and sounds of things already there. Do you know what that means?”

“It’s when an Omega is most fertile, and they become crazed and delirious for anywhere from three to five days. The only thing that can help them through their heat is to be knotted by an Alpha, but sex regardless will help lessen the discomfort,” Cambrie responded, almost as if she was reading it out of a book and not truly understanding it.

“That’s correct, but there are other ways around this if you don’t want to have sex,” Spencer explained, soldering on even as we Alphas snarled at him, offering her another solution when we were more than willing. “We can get you a substitute to use on yourself instead of having a real Alpha. Or I’ve heard of pills that will help ease the discomfort as you ride it out alone in your room.”

Cambrie looked up at him, her lip quivering. “You don’t want to help me? Or is it that you don’t want to fuck me because you prefer men?”

Hearing the word fuck come out of Cambrie’s mouth made me instantly hard. Granted, I was almost there by her scent alone but now I could chop wood with my boner. I hadn’t been this hard ever in my life, to the point of almost being painful, pressed against my jeans.

The sharp laughter that burst from Spencer pulled me out of my head and back to what was happening around me. I watched as he reached out to her, cupping her face as he closed in for a kiss. Not just any kiss this was him practically fucking her mouth with his tongue as he pulled her flush to his body. A warning growl from Marius had Spencer bringing the kiss to an end but they were both panting like they’d run a marathon.

“Cambrie, there is nothing more I want in the world than to fuck you right now. Okay, maybe I might want to fuck you as one of my Alphas fucked me into you, but that’s semantics. I want my cock buried so deep inside you that you scream my name,” Spencer stated bluntly.

The image of what he described flashed through my brain and it was fucking hot. What would it be like if that was Bodhi and me instead of Spencer and one of the others? I quickly slammed the door on that thought knowing it wasn’t good to put myself in that place when Bodhi had shown no interest.

Marius stepped forward and looked down at our Omega. “Cambrie, I need you to tell us your answer. Do you want us to help you, or do you want to try one of the other methods? None of us want to push you into something you’re not ready for.”

She looked up at him with her big blue eyes filled with hope as she asked him. “Am I not your Omega anymore? Did I ruin it by not listening to you?”

That woman had a strangle hold on my heart and I desperately wanted to set the record straight on that matter, but I wasn’t the one who needed to give the answer.

“Princess, you are the only Omega I want from now till forever,” he answered, reaching down and picking her up. “Come on, my sweet Princess, we’re gonna help you through this as a pack should, together.”

As Spencer followed those two out I looked at the others. “Any of you going to join them?”

Bodhi looked at me like I’d just asked a stupid question. “Didn’t we all say we wanted her? Why wouldn’t we help her through her first heat?”

My gaze landed on Nixon knowing he might view that differently. “I won’t be strong enough to stay away, not with Spencer in there with her. I just pray to God that I’m not too much. I know how I get when I lose control.”

Rafael walked over and gripped his arm. “We won’t let you hurt Cambrie or yourself, that’s what packs do. They look after each other, even if that means stopping them from hurting themselves.”

“Thank you, I trust you to keep your word,” Nixon answered, returning the gesture before heading downstairs.

Rafael looked at me with a raised brow. “You coming?”

“Wild horses couldn’t stop me,” I said, taking one last deep breath before I lost myself to experiencing my first heat with our Omega.

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