“Can you put that in your car Chase” I ask him, and he looks to Tate, like doing so would be betraying him.
“I take it you’re coming back with us?” My mother asks him. He nods once before my mothers eyes snap to Arial; she takes a step back from my mother’s anger. Her silence more intimidating than her screaming at you, you know you fucked up when she just stares but says nothing. Arial rushes to his car and hops in away from her gaze.
“Lana wait” Tate calls. I turn facing him but not meeting his gaze. I didn’t want to see the hurt in his eyes feeling it was bad enough.
“It’s done Tate,” I tell him walking toward Chase’s car.
“He didn’t mean it” Tate calls out.
“But he still did it though, didn’t he” I tell him before hopping in the car beside Arial.
I watch my mother talk to Tate before looking back at the car, she nods before placing her hand on his shoulder and I see him hang his head dropping onto the step looking toward the car. I look away not able to watch. My mother walks over to chase holding her hand out and he drops his keys into her hands before jumping in the passenger seat, my mother getting in the drivers seat and starting the car.
“Mum I”- Arial goes to say before my mother spins around in the seat to glare at her.
“I will deal with you at home, so be quiet before I change my mind about you bringing your mate home when you just took your sister from hers” She snaps turning around to face the front, pulling out of the driveway.
I rest my head on the window looking out, I was going home. I always thought going home will be an exciting feeling because I would have my mates, but now I just felt hollow as I watch as we went through the gates, as I said goodbye to the place that I was supposed to call home, longing for life I know will no longer be shared with them.
Chapter43
Lana’s POV
1 week later
I hadn’t spoken to them, though Tate tried to ring, I just couldn’t bring myself to answer. Instead, I watched it ring, my heart thumping in my chest. I felt his pain, felt every emotion he ever felt for this entire week and with my own it was absolute torture. I could feel everything so strong I confused his feeling with my own, struggling to differentiate between them.
Sitting in my room, I hear a knock on the door before my sister walks in.
“How are you feeling today?” She asks. I had have been struggling with ridding myself of the wolfsbane, my mother said it used to make her feel sick as well. Even Arial threw up for a few days afterwards, but I was hitting seven days and the nausea just wouldn’t leave, I knew it was the mate bond making me sick.
Being without them was weakening me, just like I weakened them for two years, though I didn’t feel a bond connection anymore with Drake that didn’t mean I didn’t long for him. I missed him just as much as I missed Tate. Missed them both.
“I never pictured being with them, the entire time I forced them to wait. But now I can’t picture being happy without them” I tell her. Arial sits on the bed wrapping her arm around my shoulders and I lean into her.
“You could always go back and be with Tate” She says.
“But then he would be forced to ignore Drake and I can’t bear to feel him with Drake anymore” I tell her.
“You can tell?” she asks. I nod, I felt it once, searing pain like Tate was cheating, so I knew he was with Drake, Drake rejected the bond so now them being together is like Tate betraying me, I have no doubt that it would be the same for Drake if I was with Tate now.
“But Drake was your mate” She says finding it odd too.
“I know but he isn’t now we have no link so, now them being together hurts” I tell her.
“Maybe ring Tate and let him know” Arial suggests.
“What and tell him sorry you can’t be with your mate because it hurts your other mate” I laugh. She shrugs at loss too.
“Then what do you want to do, you can go back and sort things out with them, or you can ring them, maybe I don’t know Lana, I’m sorry but I don’t know because I have never heard of this situation” I nod it was a strange predicament to find myself in. I ponder her words, yet I know if mum found out she would order them to remain apart, and I couldn’t do that to Tate or even Drake no matter how much they hurt me.
“How is things with you and Chase?” I ask changing the topic.
“Yeah rough, he is pissed off at me too, I really fucked everything up this time”
“It will get better” I tell her, and she nods.
“He is going home in a few weeks, to check on Drake” She says a little worried.