When he released her wrists, she would have hit the floor if my dad hadn’t caught her. She was breathing so hard that I thought we were going to have to call the ambulance. He slowly walked her over to the bed and helped her get tucked in. He looked at her like a man should only look at his wife.
“Be a good girl and I’ll come see you tomorrow. Okay?”
She nodded her head while smiling at the same time. He kissed her forehead before standing and putting the wand back in his back pocket. I was so stunned by what I’d just seen that I couldn’t move when he walked by me.
“Diesel,” he called out to me, making me blink.
He was in the kitchen washing his hands when I walked out into the living room. Before we left, he picked up a piece of chicken. He was tearing into the chicken while we stepped on the elevator.
“Kandi can cook her ass off. Have some?”
“Dad, get that shit out my face. Why you did that? What was that?”
He didn’t say anything until we were back in the car.
“Just showing you how you can invite your young lady friends into my home without disrupting my peace. When you piss her off, she pisses me off, and then I have to piss y’all off. When I come in from a business trip, I want a shower, a handjob, and some sleep, not cursing you out because you are fucking. Alright?”
I nodded my head.
“But… what was that thing, though? That wand you were hitting her with. Women really like that?”
“Yes. But… there is a way to do it. It’s all about consent. She has to be comfortable with everything you’re doing to her. You don’t want to catch a charge. In a couple more years, I can take you somewhere to show you.”
“Sure. Does Mom know about this one?”
He whipped his head toward me. “You’re not turning into your twin, are you?”
That made me laugh.
“But… to answer your question. No. At least not yet.”
“It seems tiring. Why you do it? You’ve never given me a clear answer.”
“One, she lets me do it. Nothing a little shopping spree won’t fix, unless it gets out into her social circles. Make no mistake, I love your mother. With everything in me, might I add. Your mother knew when she first met me that I had a huge appetite. Very huge appetite for stuff that she doesn’t let me do. Two, the reason I won’t ever leave her alone for real is because I can’t control her. It’s like I still chase your mother til’ this day. She’s a wild card and I love her for that.”
“I guess I can understand that.”
“You won’t understand fully until you’re in my position. Trust me.”
I stared out the window until the driver pulled in front of the house.
“And you get to take your siblings to the park for the next four weekends…”
“Dad.”
“I don’t wanna hear it.”
My father and I walked in the house to join the family for dinner like he wasn’t just spanking a woman’s pussy against the wall. My mind was everywhere, but he was my dad, and I trusted his word.
ONE
GREYSEN MCCREE
April 2021
I kept looking at the clock, waiting for 3:15 to hit. It was Friday and once that little bell rang, I’d be done with this place until Monday. The only thing planned was me going home, showering, not leaving the bed until I had to get up and come here on Monday. To keep my eyes off the clock, I looked around the room at my first graders. They were sitting at their desks, writing out their plans for the weekend. This smart group of kids is what brought me joy over the last year. They could hold conversations like they were adults, sometimes having to be redirected. Being around first graders took my mind off my personal life.
When my Apple watch vibrated, I glanced down to see that I had a message from my grandmother.