Page 98 of The Masks and the Dancer (Their Obsession 2)

There’s a flicker of something in her gaze, an internal battle that she can’t hide from me. She’s fighting her feelings, just like I have tried so hard to do. I see them swimming in her ghost eyes. Those fucking eyes that bewitch me. A sharp blue next to a brown so dark it’s almost as black as my heart.

Light and dark… They remind me of the conversation I had with Five.

Good versus bad.

Right versus wrong.

I’m still bad, I know that, but then I look at my brother and see he’s found a way to straddle the line. I wonder if I can do that too?

I know I want to. Iwantto.

“Jakub ran because of it,” Leon continues. “He wanted me to hurt her… and I did.”

“You did?” I growl, furious,jealous.

He nods tightly, his fingers seeking out Christy’s as he entwines them with hers. “But I stopped. I stopped because of Christy, because she pulled me back from the brink.”

“No,” Christy shakes her head, glancing at him as he steps to her side. “You did that yourself. You made a choice to do better, to be better. Only you can do that. Only you.”

“And you let me,” he whispers, dropping a kiss against her bare shoulder before looking back up at me. “I made love for the first motherfucking time in my life,” Leon admits, shaking his head in wonder. “Jakub watched every moment. He couldn’t deal with it. He ran, Kon.”

“To the forest?” I ask, worry coursing through my veins as jealousy rips through my heart.

“Worse. I think he’s gone to the cabin,” Leon replies, gritting his teeth.

“Fuck!”

“The cabin?” Christy asks, her gaze shifting from me to Leon and back again.

He nods. “Malik took him to the cabin in the woods when spending time with One didn’t work. Jakub never told us what happened there but we both knew it wasn’t good. He came back a little darker and more broken every time.”

“Oh God.” Her hand flies to her mouth and she presses her eyes shut as though that alone will prevent her from imagining the atrocities he would’ve suffered, is probably suffering now just being there with his memories, with the ghost of our father.

“He’s fighting his feelings towards you with everything he has,” I explain.

“And you?” she asks, opening her eyes slowly, staring right into the depths of my very being.

“I’m fighting, too. I’m fighting hard not to take you here and now, to fuck you into oblivion.”

“Even after what happened to you today?”

“Even then.”

She flinches and I see the disgust, the pity in her eyes. A normal person wouldn’t want to fuck so quickly after what happened, but I’m not normal. None of us are. “You have to understand, sex is a weapon our father weilded against us time and time again. I found a way to cope with what happened…”

“You disappear.”

“Yes,” I nod. “I alsoembrace. It’s fucked-up, but it’s who I am. I look at you now and all I want to do is fuck you until I’ve purged all the darkness within me. I want to bleed it from my soul, so you’ll accept me, not reject me...”

“But?” she questions, her teeth chattering now. I don’t know if it’s from fear or from the cold. Either way, Leon releases her hand and wraps his arms around her stomach, hauling her back against his chest, warming her up as much as he’s protecting her from me. His gaze is as fierce as hers, and for a moment I’m struck by it. Even now he believes I could hurt her, and he’d be right.

“But I’m not sure that would happen even if you were willing. This darkness still lives within me. It won’t let go,” I admit, pressing a hand against my chest and rubbing at the pain I feel there. “I’m past saving.”

“Tell me what you want from me,” she says brazenly, her cheeks flushing.

I swallow hard, the words falling from my lips in a rush of heat, fire and lust. “I want to take you to our room above the library and tie you to our bed. I want to fuck you with every single dildo in the armoire and make you come so hard you won’t know what day it is. Then I want to whip you, paddle your arse until it’s as red as your birthmark, then soothe those marks with my lips and tongue. I want to taste your pussy, feast on it. I want to make you bleed. I want your mouth around my cock. I want my hands around your throat whilst I fuck you. I want to watch my brothers do the same. I want… I want...Fuck!”

I curl my fingers into fists, and force my mouth shut. Fuck, this is hard. Harder than anything I’ve ever had to do. I’m shaking now. My whole body is trembling like hers as I fight the need to impale her on my cock and take her against the wall of this cave like some ravenous beast.

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