Page 72 of Overcoming the Beta

Immediately, the smell of pancakes and bacon hits my nose and my stomach growls so loud I swear the walls shake. Exploring the red cooler further, I also find sausage and cheese omelets, biscuits, honey, and warm syrup. All this mouthwatering food looks and smells delicious. For a moment, I contemplate just digging in before Ian wakes up. He wouldn’t mind too much, right?

I close the red cooler, so the food stays warm. Opening the blue cooler, I discover water, orange juice, milk, creamer, sugar, coffee grounds, and a note.

Welcome back to the world.

Enjoy the food, fill up.

Lunch starts at noon.

We will have several protein-packed

foods perfect for expecting mothers.

Hopefully the heat took,

and we will have pups from all our

future leaders born at the same time.

Chef Marcie

After reading the note, excitement hits my chest. Are Rebeka and Sonia pregnant? I hope it’s true. Rebeka is a wonderful mother to her twin girls, and I know she wants a huge family. Sonia is so amazing with the pups I’ve seen her around; I know she will be a perfect mother as well. Kelsey will make a good father; all he has to do is follow our dad’s lead. I smile, thinking about my mom as a grandmother and the excitement she must feel right now, knowing there will be a pup for her to spoil soon.

Then I think about myself, and I get a little sad. The heat won’t take because I’m on the pill. I’ve been on them since just after Ian and I found out we were mates, and I never forget… wait. Shit, I haven’t taken my pill since the fever started.I FORGOT!Shit!

Ian and I have never really talked about when we should start a family. Both of us want pups, but we just got back together. Are we ready? Am I ready?Shit!This stupid heat. Whydid nature have to step in and complicate things? I know why because I wanted to take it slow… then I didn’t... then I did… then I didn’t. Since I couldn’t seem to decide, nature stepped in and said,‘hold my beer, hun, I’ve got this.’Shit!Will Ian be pissed, thinking I’m trying to trap him? Wait, trap him. How exactly? He found me, he pursued me, and…

My head is spinning. I’ve put myself into full panic mode doing the overthinking thing I do and am having a hard time breathing. I need to calm myself down before I pass out from a panic attack. Sitting down in a chair at the table, I take a deep breath in, hold it for a count of ten, then blow it out slowly. I do this several times before I feel the tension leave my body. Ian is my mate, the other half of my soul… whatever happens, we will get through it together. I continue sitting and practice my calming breaths.

I peek in at him and watch him sleep from the doorway of the bedroom. He looks so beautiful and blissful, like he is finally at peace. I watch as his chest rises and falls with each breath he takes. He has changed so much in the last two and a half years. He was a rotten boy in a man’s body doing whatever he wanted, not caring who he hurt. The guilt he felt was only because he knew what he was doing was wrong. The man he has become is caring, loving, thoughtful, and truly remorseful about what he did in the past. He wants to be a better man… for me.

I turn the shower on and step under the hot water. We did nothing but have sex and sleep in our bodily fluids for the past seven days. A shower is definitely in the cards for this morning. Letting the hot water flow over my head and down my body, washing seven days of sex, sweat, and our bodily fluids down the drain. I can’t believe my appetite for him was insatiable. I couldn’t get enough… still can’t. Even this morning, I want him.

Heat for me is finally over, but I still find my core throbbing and craving him this morning.How can that be?There was no time for eating, only sex. Rough sex at that. I had the desire to feel pain each time he thrust in and out of me, which is not normal for me.Maybe it was the heat.I usually like slow and soft… but now… I feel different somehow. More confident, almost, something about the heat changed me. I think I like it.

“There you are.” Ian pulls the shower curtain back and joins me in the shower.

“Did you think I ran away?” I stick my tongue out, teasing him.

“Nope.” He spins us so he is under the water, “I know neither of us will ever be too far from the other again.” He kisses my nose then lifts his head up, letting the hot water wash over him. “Oh, hell yeah.”

“Same,” I laugh. Watching his body and the way the water rolls off his muscular build, my core throbs harder. How does this magnificent man belong to me?

“How are you feeling?” He puts shampoo in his hair, then hands the bottle to me.

“Heat is over and I’m feeling normal again.” I wash my hair.

“And your body?” He rinses his hair.

“A little stiff… I’m a little sore down there.” I point to my core before he puts me under the water.

“I’m sure you are. I didn’t know you liked it so rough.” He puts conditioner in my hair, then puts himself back under the water.

“I don’t… didn’t…” I laugh, “I like it now.” He washes his body.

“So, you want more?” He fills the washcloth with more body wash then washes my body.

“Yes, I want more.” I move his hand to my core, “and more,” I rub his fingers along my slit, “and more.” He dips his fingers in and out, then up to my nub, rubbing circles around it.

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