Page 27 of Turtles All the Way Down

"About Dad," he said. "Davis said you were after the reward. Did you find anything?"

"Not really."

"Can I send you something? I took all the notes off Dad's phone from iCloud. They might help you. Might be a clue or something. The last note, the one he wrote that night, was 'the jogger's mouth.' That mean anything to you?"

"I don't think so." I gave him my number so he could text me the notes and told him I'd look into it.

"Thanks," he said. His voice had gotten small. "Davis thinks we're better off with him on the run. Says it'd be worse if he was in jail."

"What do you think?"

He stared up at me for a moment, then said, "I want him to come home."

I sat down on the couch next to him. "I'm sure he'll show up."

I felt him leaning over until his shoulder was against mine. I wasn't wild about touching strangers, especially given that he didn't seem to have showered in some time, but I said, "It's all right to be scared, Noah." And then he turned his face away from me and started sobbing. "You're okay," I told him, lying. "You're okay. He'll come home."

"I can't think straight," he said, his little voice half strangled by the crying. "Ever since he left, I can't think straight." I knew how that felt--all my life, I'd been unable to think straight, unable to even finish having a thought because my thoughts came not in lines but in knotted loops curling in upon themselves, in sinking quicksand, in light-swallowing wormholes. "You're okay," I lied to him again. "You probably just need some rest." I didn't know what else to say. He was so small, and so alone.

"Will you let me know? If you find anything out about Dad, I mean."

"Yeah, of course."

After a while, he straightened up and wiped his face against his sleeve. I told him he should get some sleep. It was nearly midnight.

He put the bowl of Lucky Charms on the coffee table, stood up, and walked upstairs without saying good-bye.

I didn't know where to go, and having the bag of money in my hand was freaking me out a little, so in the end I just left the house. I looked up at the sky as I ambled toward Harold, and thought about the stars in Cassiopeia, centuries of light-time from me and from one another.

I swung the bag in my hand as I walked. It weighed almost nothing.

TEN

I TEXTED DAISY the next morning while I was still in bed.

Big news call when you can.

She called immediately.

"Hey," I said.

"I know he is a gigantic baby," she responded, "but I actually think upon close examination he is hot. And in general, quite charming, and very sexually open and comfortable, although we didn't do it or anything."

"I'm thrilled for you, so last night--"

"And he really seemed to like me? Usually I feel like boys are a bit afraid of me, but he wasn't. He holds you and you feel held, you know what I'm saying? Also he's already called me this morning, which I found cute instead of worrisomely overeager. But please do not think I am becoming the best friend who falls in love and ditches her bitches. Wait, oh God, I just said I'm in love. We've been hooking up for under twenty-four hours and I'm dropping L-bombs. What is happening to me? Why is this boy I've known since eighth grade suddenly so amazing?"

"Because you read too much romantic fan fiction?"

"There is literally no such thing," she answered. "How's Davis?"

"That's what I want to talk about. Can we meet somewhere? It's better if I can show you." I wanted to see her face when she saw the money.

"I already have a breakfast date, unfortunately."

"I thought you weren't ditching your bitches," I said.

"And I'm not. My breakfast date is with Mr. Charles Cheese. Alas. Can it wait till Monday?"

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