take that huge, first gasp of air. That’s the kind of sigh Steph
 
 made. Like she’s drowning, sinking down, with no hope, but
 
 then suddenly decides to kick for the surface and finally
 
 reaches it this time.
 
 She turns and studies me in bewilderment like she’s not
 
 really sure who I am or how I got here. But then she purses her
 
 lips and I see her determination come back. Her face is
 
 shockingly pale, but I can literally see some of the color
 
 coming back into her cheeks.
 
 Another big inhale floods the room. A long exhale.
 
 At least now Steph is looking at me. I can usually read
 
 people pretty well, especially when they’re making eye
 
 contact, but right now, I’m completely confused. Steph’s face
 
 is a mixture of fear and exhilaration. Like she’s been waiting a
 
 lifetime to say this.
 
 And suddenly, I know.
 
 I just know.
 
 Because I felt the same way when I first told my family
 
 and my friends.
 
 “The matches were perfect in every way. You did the
 
 best job you could have. It was just that they were never going
 
 to work, because I’m not—I’ve tried, but I-I’m not interested
 
 in men. In that way. I-I’m actually attracted to…women.”
 
 Chapter 10
 
 Stephanie
 
 Instead of relief, my words are followed by an immediate
 
 sense of panic. There obviously isn’t any taking them back.
 
 Unfortunately for all mankind, time machines haven’t been
 
 invented. I thought it would feel good to finally say it. To
 
 finally tell someone. To actually admit the truth. I thought it