It’s not that I wouldn’t die trying. It’s just that I can see the other side of the coin where my death might not change anything. I learned that after my busted leg ended my football career and I realized no amount of physio could fix me.

“Georgiou.”

“What?”

“We’re going to have to consider that this might not work, and we can’t do this to her. She shouldn’t have to live in secret. She’s young, and she’s just started her life. We’ve lived. There might be a point when this pursuit no longer benefits all of us, and we’ll just end up looking like the selfish motherfuckers we are.”

He stares back at me, and in the depths of his eyes, I can see hehasthought about it.

Georgiou pulls in a breath and answers with a slight nod, then he leaves.

I have a bad feeling in my gut.

That feeling always comes to fuck with me when I have no control over a situation.

The feeling is there, and I’m not sure when it’s going to go away.

32

Evie

I’ve been on edge all week.

I’m supposed to see the guys in an hour, but here at Cordelia’s. That means I’m not going back to the house again tonight.

They also haven’t said when I’ll be going back.

I know I have to play the situation by ear, but I feel safer when I’m with them.

Being here makes me feel more vulnerable. It’s just because I feel safe with them.

Cordelia comes into the room dressed up to go out, and I doubt she’ll be back for the night, which is good because I don’t like having sex in the house when she’s here.

I always think she can hear me, and the guys have been here twice this week already.

“Just coming to check on you. You look like you’re going to go crazy,” she observes and shakes her head.

“Maybe because I am.” I had to tell her what happened, that someone saw me with the guys last weekend.

“It’s been a few days, and nothing has happened. That’s a good sign in my book.”

I bring my hand up to my head. “I know, but that’s not the only thing I have to worry about. I’m getting engaged to this guy next month, and I’m nowhere near where I need to be. The situation is still the same. I’m in the same spot I was in months ago, Cordelia.”

She bites the inside of her lip. “I know, sweetie. I know it doesn’t really help to tell you not to worry, but I’m going to do it anyway. Please, try to stay calm. Just try. No one has any answers yet, and I won’t try to offer any either. But I’m rooting for you.”

“Thank you.”

She gives me a quick hug then goes.

I do my best to take her advice and stay calm. I feel better when the guys get here, and the instant I get lost in their kisses, I forget, and I’m taken to a place where my world is just filled with them.

They are all I want and need.

We don’t have long together, and they haven’t been spending the night with me while I’m here, so I block out everything as I’m sucked into the thrall of being with them.

They both take me ruthlessly, and it feels like they do so to make up for the time we have to spend apart.

While I’m on my hands and knees with Henry pounding into me hard from behind and Georgiou’s cock in my mouth, I swear I hear a noise outside the door.