“You could have had a day where you were late, the mini pill is famous for that happening. It’s a lot easier on the body than any other pill but the things that make it good make it bad too in the sense that you have to make sure you keep within the time frame which is usually a four to six hour window depending on which one you’re on.”
I open my mouth to speak but the words don’t come. Yeah, I took my pill every morning at the same time when I was in Italy and I was sure I did that here too, but… with the way I’ve been crazy with Gabe, there’s a chance I forgot. I could have forgotten a day.
I don’t know. I …
She comes over to me and smiles. “Let’s run some more tests to be sure. No need to worry until then. We’ll do a full check and have the results ready by tomorrow at the latest.”
I nod but worry at the same time.
* * *
The next morningconfirms I’m pregnant. Cordelia stayed over because she was worried about me. She was right to be. I’m pregnant. Me…
She was with me when I got the call from Dr. Hague and is with me now.
I haven’t thrown up like I did yesterday because Dr. Hague gave me some nausea tablets and honestly I feel better in my body but shocked at the news.
Shocked and beside myself because I’m happy, but I don’t know if Gabe will be and I don’t know how I’m going to calm myself with so much going on.
I’m three weeks pregnant. Three weeks.
Should I even be surprised with how much sex Gabe and I had?
“Hey…” Cordelia smiles and reaches out to take my hand. We’re sitting on the sofa next to each other. I’ve just been staring off into space thinking. Always thinking.
“Hey… I’m sorry I’m just shocked. And worried,” I tell her.
She puts and arm around me. “Please tell me you aren’t worrying over Gabe because you don’t need to worry about him.”
“You don’t think so?”
She gives me an incredulous glare. “You don’t need to worry about him. He’s going to be thrilled. He will, Charlotte.”
I release a heavy sigh and shuffle to face her. “I’m worried about everything. Now’s not a good time to be pregnant. I feel so… strange.” That was the best way I could describe it. I feel drained from the days of sickness but I feel like I can’t think straight and now’s the time to be on our toes. Be ready and aware of what’s going on. I don’t know when Tobias will strike. What if he hurts me and I lose my baby?
The thought makes me stand and ball my fists.
“Charlotte, stop.” Cordelia stands too and places her hands on my shoulders. “Just stop.”
“What if something happens to me? Cordelia, Tobias is –”
“Stop.” She cuts in and shakes her head. “Listen to me. Remember what I said about cutting the shit and living the day like you would if the shit didn’t matter?”
I dip my head remembering. I do remember and I credit her for the happy times I’ve had since being back because she helped me find the mindset to receive it.
“I know. I’m trying.”
“Try harder girl.” She chuckles and smiles wide. “You just got told you’re having a baby and your baby was made with true love. Charlotte you’re with a man who loves you to no end. Please, please take the moment to enjoy that, it’s beautiful and invigorating. It’s good news for the two of you. Other than getting you back, it’s the best news I’ve had in a very long time. Forget it all, the whole Tobias shit and make sure you guys enjoy it all.”
A tear runs down my cheek and I feel my heart warm. Gratitude fills me. She’s right, she is and I know just how to make tomorrow as special as I want it to be.
I nod, agreeing.
* * *
I’m goingto tell Gabe tomorrow but the itch to tell him now grabs me. We’re in the function hall of the Hyatt and Gabe and his brothers have rented the hall and the whole balcony area leading out to the pool for the event.
Everyone is here and I see now why pregnant women have it so hard keeping their good news to themselves until they’re ready to share it with others.