Chapter Twenty-Eight

Mia

Excitement fills me all day.

It started from the minute I woke up and saw the message from Peter.

It certainly fills me now as I leave his office. I start working for him in two weeks and I’m so excited I’m practically skipping to the boutique down the road to meet Chloe.

I told her about my date tonight and of course my best friend insisted on shopping.

Today has just been amazing. One of the best days I’ve had in a very long time. Very, very long time.

I don’t know what Nick did but I know it’s him.

Peter offered me a part time junior associate position helping out the intellectual property lawyer he hired a few weeks back.

I don’t care that it’s part time it’s what I want and it’s part time with a view to being full time as soon as he gets more clients on his books. That’s good enough for me and the salary is what I got in LA. for fulltime hours.

It’s perfect and takes me right back to the question of Nick.

Over the last few days I know stuff has happened to him. I see it on his face and in his eyes.

He doesn’t have to tell me it’s to do with Tommy. I know. There’s some things you just have the intuition of an this feels like one of those times.

I can’t imagine how he must feel and I often want to ask him about it. I figured I’d just be there and we could forget about life together.

It’s at that stage though where it feels like we can’t do that anymore.

When I meet Chloe she’s so excited to hear my news and to be shopping for a date that it’s like it’s her news and it’s her date.

We spend hours out which is great because I don’t want to go home just yet.

I’m not really speaking to Dad. Haven’t since we saw Carter.

I say the bare minimum to him. Good morning and hello. My goodnight’s are saved for Nick.

I’ve hardly seen Beth too which I don’t like. I’m just her aunt but she’s like my little girl and I can sense when she needs me. I plan to take her to the movies next week and we can have some quality girl time.

Chloe and I end our day in the ice cream parlor. I ate so much ice cream while we talked about Nick. Jesus, I pray I fit into my dress later. Chloe insists on me wearing a body con. I can’t disagree since the dress I got looks drop dead gorgeous.

I know it’s crazy.

I’m crazy and I’m encouraging crazy to take me. I don’t know how I ended up at the point where I’m excited about a date with Nick and just not thinking.

Not thinking about anything, or the things I should because I’m wondering what it’s like to be tied to his bed. Or, for him to break me.

Shit… it should appall me. I should be … anything besides excited. Something, not curious.

I’m thinking about it so much I’m barely paying attention to anything.

Then suddenly… the sensation that someone is watching me spikes my nerves. I get a distinct impression as I walk to the parking lot outside the mall.

The sensation is so strong I whirl around to look, expecting to see someone but everyone around me is going about their own business, not really paying much attention to me.

I turn around and gaze over to the water fountain and see a guy walking up the road by the book shop. He glances over his shoulder once and I’m sure he looks at me.

Am I imagining things?