Page 22 of Throttle Me (Men of Inked 1)
“You want me inside you, sugar?” I asked in a slow deep tone as I stood at the foot of the bed stroking myself.
“Well,” she said, caressing her skin and licking her lips. “I mean, your fingers are magic and your mouth is divine…”
I held up my free hand. “Shhh, sugar. No more talking. The only sound I want to hear is you screaming my name as you come on my dick.”
“Oh,” she said her eyes still glued to my shaft like she’d never seen it before. She was so easy to fluster. Tearing the condom wrapper open with my teeth, I rolled it over my aching member. I couldn’t wait any longer to be inside her luscious cunt and seek my release.
I moved up her body and nestled between her legs. “For the first time I’m taking you as mine.” I laid my palm against her pussy, cupping it as I gripped it in its entirety. “No one else gets to touch you understand, Suzette?” I asked with my lips against hers.
“Yes, Joseph. It’s yours and only yours,” she said staring in my eyes.
I kissed her and claimed her body as mine, fucking her with passion before spilling my seed inside of her. I took her slow and gentle, showing her body the attention it deserved and worshipped her in a way she’d never experienced before collapsing on the mattress.
I stretched out in bed and stared at the ceiling as she went to get ready for bed. She walked out of the bathroom in a t-shirt but I wanted to feel her skin against mine as we slept. “No clothes.”
“What do you mean?” she asked as she touched the edge of the mattress.
“When you sleep in bed with me, I don’t want you wearing clothes. They’re a barrier I don’t want to deal with – I want all of you whenever I want you, even in the middle of the night.” I patted the mattress.
“Underwear?” she smiled and lifted the shirt.
“No underwear either. Strip and get your fine ass in this bed.” She didn’t move, but looked at me with a silly smile. “Do it,” I said eyeing her.
“But.”
“No, buts, sugar. I’ve seen every inch of your body, even that beautiful little asshole of yours. That’ll be mine someday too.”
Her smile faded, but her eyes twinkled as she stepped out of her panties and threw her nightshirt on the floor. She curled against my body and rested her head on my shoulder.
“Hand, sugar.”
She placed her hand on my chest, not forgetting where I put it the first night we spent together. My heartbeat thudded below her palm as I rested my hand on top of hers. I placed my lips against her forehead. “Sweet dreams, beautiful.”
“Night, Joey,” she said as she yawned. Her breathing changed quickly as she drifted to sleep.
I listened to her tiny breaths as she slept beside me, wrapped in my arms, and curled into my body. I held her hand against my chest and felt her fingertips rub my skin. I felt my eyes grow heavy as I rubbed her hand and tangled my fingers in her hair.
I felt someone staring at me as I opened my eyes in the darkness. “You awake?” she whispered.
“I am now,” I said moving my fingers in her hair. “What’s wrong, sugar?”
“I couldn’t sleep. I didn’t want to wake you, but I…” Her words cut off.
“What’s bothering that pretty little head of yours?” I moved my fingers out of her hair and rubbed the soft skin of her arms, thrumming my fingers back and forth rhythmically.
“I’m just scared,” she whispered.
“Of me?” I moved my head away to see her face barely lit by moonlight cascading through the blinds.
“Not really.” She rubbed my chest. “I’ve had boyfriends, but only a couple. I’ve never felt about them the way I feel about you, Joey. It scares the piss out of me.”
“How did you feel about them?” I asked, more curious about how she felt about me than the previous men in my shoes.
“They were nice, but I didn’t get butterflies every time I saw them. We’d go days without talking and I was fine with that, but with you I’m always checking my phone for a message. I’m feeling needy with you, Joey, and I don’t like it.”
“Sugar,” I reached for her chin, drawing her shadowed eyes toward my face. “That’s not needy. Needy and clingy is if you’re up my ass all day and want to know my every move. Needy is when you show up at my house all hours of the night and at the shop during the day.” I shook my head and smirked at her. “You’re not needy. Wipe that shit from your mind.”
“If you say so. It’s just a new feeling for me. If I overstep or act like a crazy person, please tell me.” The worry in her eyes began to ease.
“Deal.” I kissed her forehead lingering over the soft flesh with my lips.
“What was your longest relationship?” I asked. I hadn’t been the pillar of normal relationship behavior since I lost Joni, but I had an inkling that she had been just as unlucky in love as I had been.
“Four months
,” she whispered.
“Did you love him?”
“I think I loved him, but a week after I said those words to him, he left me. He’s the only man I’ve ever said that to – he broke my heart.” I rubbed my hand up her arms to soothe her while she spoke. “I’ve never really allowed myself to get that close to anyone after that. It was during my freshman year in college and after that breakup, I just spent my time studying and avoiding anything that felt like it could lead to a relationship.” She yawned and burrowed her body a little closer to mine.
“I understand heartbreak and wanting to guard your heart from the pain. I’ve lived it for more years than I’d like to admit.” I pulled her closer, leaving no space between us. “Let’s just take this slow. It’s best for both of us.”
“Slow,” she said, as she reached up and rubbed my face. I pulled her hand back to my chest and held it against my heart.
I could hear her breathing change as sleep took her. I closed my eyes, content and happy for the first time since Joni had last slept in my arms, I look forward to what tomorrow held.
Tattoos and Torment
“How’d it go with Mr. Piercings?” Sophia chuckled in the phone as I chewed my bagel.
“He gave me a little going away present this morning before he headed home to change.” I chomped down, letting the cream cheese slide across my tongue.
“Ooo, someone had a sleepover. I liked him, Suz. He looks badass, but I can see a kind heart underneath. Reminds me a bit of Kayden, but I hope without the other bullshit.”
I swallowed down the dry leftover bagel. “I almost messed everything up with him, Sophia.” I grabbed the glass of milk off the counter, taking a sip, while I waited for her to scream at me.
“Are you fucking crazy? Why in the hell would you do that? What happened?” she yelled, her shrill voice causing my ear to throb.
“I just didn’t see us going anywhere and I didn’t want to get too attached to him. I ignored him yesterday and ended up going on a date with Derek instead.”
“Derek? What the fuck, Suzy? You know that guy gives me the creeps.”
I sighed as I leaned against the counter, wanting to smash my head into the gray Formica for being so stupid. “I know. I just wanted to forget City – epic disaster that I’ll tell you about someday. Anyway, City came to my rescue and took me home.”
“Well thank Christ for small miracles.”
“He asked me to be his girlfriend, Sophia. Can you believe that?”
“I do. You’re an amazing girl, little mama. Any man would be lucky to have you as his woman. City was smart enough to realize it. Kayden was the same way with me, but his hard exterior melted. Sometimes you just have to roll with it to get to the good stuff. Nothing in life is risk free, Suzy.”
“I know, Sophia. My entire body vibrates when I’m around him and my stomach fills with butterflies. I’ve never felt that way with anyone and it scares the crap out of me. I tried to push him away, but he didn’t let me.”
“You must have some fine shit.”
I choked on my milk and it started to come out my nose as I wiped my face. “What in the heck are you talking about, woman?”
“Well, you tried to get rid of him and I know you usually hold true to your plan, so I know you didn’t relent first and he came to you. Most guys would just say fuck that and walk away without looking back, but you must have something special that made him come back for more. Huh, who knew?” she giggled.
“Shut it, whore. We had a long talk about relationships and love when he brought me home. He’s been hurt before and hasn’t had a real girlfriend in years.”
“We’ve all been hurt before. It’s part of love. If you never hurt, then you’ve never truly been in love before, Suzy. What happened to him?”
“His fiancé died,” I said, putting my cup in the dishwasher. I leaned against the counter and rested the phone against my shoulder.
“Wow, that’s horrible. I couldn’t image losing Kayden. I’d be a complete and total mess. I don’t know if I’d love anyone the way I love him. I couldn’t allow myself to love anyone that way again if he was ripped from my life.”
“Yeah, I just wonder if he’ll be able to make room in his heart for me. I’ll always be competing with her for his love, I’m afraid.”
“It’s not a competition, sweetheart. There’s room for both of you. He’s taking a risk with you – just give him time to deal with his feelings. Don’t rush into the ‘L’ word.”
“You did with Kayden,” I said, smiling even though she couldn’t see me.
“I know,” she sighed. “I couldn’t imagine anyone else in my life. Kayden was it for me, babe. He ruined me and I could never be without him – I knew that after our first weekend together – it felt like all the planets aligned. I was finally with the man I was meant to be with my entire life.”
“I’m just going to enjoy his glorious body filled with extra holes and pretty pictures. Jesus, girl, you should see his fine ass naked.”
“Did you say ass?” she asked sounding shocked.
“I am an adult, Sophia. I do swear.”
“I think City’s dick stirred your brain and altered your thought pattern. My Suzy sunshine never uses profanity,” she bellowed.
“Suck it.”
