Page 59 of Kayden: The Past
Sophia is everything she portrayed herself to be. She’s a genuinely nice person who is beautiful and quirky. I can’t describe every way she’s different than any woman I’ve come into contact with, but she is. She’s my soul mate who I had to walk through hell to find. Sophia’s my kismet, the one worth everything I went through to be with in the end.
I often wonder how different my life would have been if I’d met her instead of Danielle. Bridget was inevitable, and Sophia was too young at the time to get more than a glance from me. What if she’d been with her brother that night in the bar and caught my eye? Would I have escaped the heartache of the loss of a child and the betrayal by my wife? I never would’ve been arrested and may not have the drinking issues I still battle with on a daily basis.
Life’s full of what-ifs, but none more than the Sophia question. I felt like I wasted years of my life without her by my side. The other women were meaningless and unimportant; although they helped me to realize what love is and should be, and with Sophia, I found it and held on tight.
She saved me from myself and my life of misery. She showed me true love and stuck with me through everything: job loss, drunken nights, and despair. She believed in me when I didn’t believe in myself.
I often wonder why in the fuck she did, but then I remind myself that I would’ve for her. When you truly love someone, you stand by their side and help them through the darkest times in their life. I’m thankful she’s a special person and has the patience of a saint. She was meant to come into my life when she did. She saved me, and I’ll forever be indebted to her. I live my life for her and to be the man she deserves.
I’ll never forget the day she said to me:
“Kayden, I love you for everything you are now, not for what you were. I want to know all of you, what made you into the man you are today, the man who has consumed my every thought and captured my soul.”
It changed my life and altered my path forever. I’d seek help and get counseling, never wanting to abandon her again or break her heart.
