Page 10 of Wolf Heart

I’m in so much pain I can’t think. I can’t move. I can’t breathe.

I’m doomed to be alone. I’m destined to be alone.

I can’t stay here.

I turn away and run. I don’t look back because seeing that look of disgust on Michael’s face burns in my mind and soul. Just the memory of it hurts so bad I can’t stop sobbing. Why did I ever think that this would work out? I’m so stupid. Unworthy.

My chest heaves as I cry, running through the night and my feet stumble over the terrain.

I’m not sure how long I run, but I don’t look back and I don’t stop.

My heart feels like it might give out then I run some more.

The night is cool but sweat drips down my forehead and makes my eyes sting. Each step feels like I’m smashing my feet into buckets of rocks and my heart feels like it’s being squeezed with every step.

My lungs burn and my legs threaten to give out. Still, I push on.

Banished. The word feels like a shovel striking the dirt of my grave. Might as well be a death sentence for me because there is nothing outside of the pack.

I feel dead inside and it’s only a matter of time before I’m dead for real.

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