Twenty-One
Amethyst
“I’ll be backin a few hours to take you to the appointment,” Davit said a week later.
“It’s not necessary,” I responded as I took a sip of coffee.
“I know it’s not necessary, but I want to be there,” he said.
I nodded, but didn’t say anything.
It was still taking some time to get used to this…whatever it was.
I still didn’t have a name for it, at least not one that I dared say out loud, but we had fallen into a rhythm, a comfort, and I was reluctant to shake it up.
I had known that he was excited about the baby, but, at least in the beginning, I thought it was more about possession, ownership.
I was slowly coming to realize that it wasn’t.
Just like me, he felt a connection to our child, looked forward to meeting him and building a relationship with him.
Just thinking about it made my heart pound with happiness that I dared not express.
“And Elias wants to know if he can come by for dinner one day this week,” he said.
“Of course. Anytime,” I said.
Yet another development I certainly hadn’t expected.
My first meeting with Elias had been intense. And, in the several times I had seen him since, I realized that the intensity was always present.
But he genuinely seemed to like me, and I enjoyed watching him and Davit, a little bit jealous of the sibling bond I would never experience, but also amused.
Those two tough, dangerous men, being so normal. Older brother and younger.
“I’ll see you later,” he said.
He stopped to give me a kiss on the cheek, and I smiled as he walked out.
This could work.
I kept that thought in my head, told myself that it could, that I would do everything in my power to make sure it did.
I put on a jacket and scarf and set out for my walk.
They had gotten shorter, but I still tried to do them every day, despite the chill that was creeping into the air.
Today was no different, although rather than sitting in the park, I found a spot in a café to try to keep out of the cold.
As I sat there, the disbelief that I hadn’t quite been able to shake settled in.
This was really happening, and so far, at least, it was working.
I dared not hope, but with each day that passed, I started to believe a little bit more.
“May I get you something, ma’am?”
I looked up at the person who had approached the table, and smiled.