She gave another quick laugh, and some of the heaviness that had started to weigh down the conversation lifted.
“Well, did you find what you’re looking for?”
I didn’t answer immediately, instead considering the question.
Had I?
“I don’t know,” I finally said.
“That’s honest,” she responded.
“It is. But…”
I trailed off, my thoughts slowing as I considered my predicament. I took a deep breath.
“I think it’s going to be okay,” I finally said.
I had no reason for that, knew that despite Davit’s assurances, everything was still up in the air.
But I did think everything would be okay.
“You remember what I told you, don’t you?” she said.
“That I can rely on myself,” I responded.
“Bingo. You believe that now?”
“Yeah,” I said.
And for better or worse, I did.
Yes, I had felt that before. I had felt like I was independent, but these weeks had proven something more.
They had proven that I was a fighter, that when the chips were down, I would come through.
It was a skill that I hoped wasn’t tested again, but it gave me confidence, however small, that I could face the challenges I was sure to confront.
“Then that’s all that matters,” she said.
“Well, catch me up on what’s been going on,” I said.
“I know you know,” she said.
“No, I don’t,” I responded.
“Well, your father finally decided on Keenan’s replacement. And, respect to the dead, but this guy is much better. And not too hard on the eyes, if I may say so,” Carol said.
“That’s good,” I replied, laughing.
The perpetually single Carol would never settle down, but as she liked to say, that didn’t mean she couldn’t look.
“And Josh quit,” she said, her voice taking on a somber tone.
“Oh, really?” I said.
“Yeah. Said he wanted to start his own thing. Which makes sense. Smart boy like that should take his shot,” she said.
“Yeah,” I responded.