Falling in love has always made me do stupid things, but this one seems to really take the cake. The only exception would be the time I followed Cole around all day in secret while he “ran errands.” Somehow, he had been able to sustain a whole other girlfriend while he was still dating me. Whether or not she was one of his victims, I don’t know.
I feel like a complete psycho right now. What kind of grown woman overreacts like that?
Was I even overreacting?
Now is one of those moments when I wish I had more friends to talk to. I have no base for comparison in a lot of these things. It makes me feel lost, scared, and forlorn. In moments like these, I miss my mother more than ever. She would know what to do, and I feel like I can hear her voice in my head.
But she didn’t have a thirst for vengeance quite like I do.
And she didn’t have to live through Marcus’s death.
The only thing left to do is burn my feelings to the ground and start back where I began. I need to do what I came here to do, which means destroying his empire and getting revenge for my brother. In a way, letting go of Abram is liberating because I don’t have to worry about feeling guilty when I light his life on fire.