herself carefully, slowly, sometimes because he or she
 
 didn't remember these things until something stirred
 
 up the remembrance. Maybe we go through our whole
 
 lives and never really get to know the people we love
 
 or think we love. Look at how much I had learned
 
 about Karen in just the last few months.
 
 My father mistook my deep thinking for
 
 sadness.
 
 "We'll try to do something this weekend," he
 
 promised after we left the restaurant. "Maybe we'll
 
 take a ride to the city and see a show. I think your
 
 mother gets this weekend off. That'll be fun, won't it?" "Yes," I said. I juggled my sadness about Karen
 
 missing all the fun with the realization that she would
 
 have the house to herself and wouldn't be so restricted
 
 in her movements. She could even watch television,
 
 play music, anything, if she was just careful about not
 
 leaving any traces. We'd have to go over that, I
 
 thought. We'd have to be sure that was followed
 
 strictly.
 
 There was so much preparation to do and so
 
 little time to do it. An idea occurred to me.
 
 "Daddy, I'd like to stay home from school
 
 tomorrow."
 
 "You would? Why?"
 
 "It's going to be terrible for me to go back right
 
 after all this. They'll gang up on me to tell them everything I know, and they won't leave me alone all day. I
 
 need a little time. Please," I pleaded.
 
 "Sure, I understand," he said. "I'll call your
 
 mother at the hospital and let her know. No problem,
 
 honey."