Page 11 of The Secrets We Keep

Me too. I want to whisper back even though my secret is sitting there in the back of my mind.

Chapter 6

The next few weeks seem to fly by. Season is picking up at S1 and Sam has me working a little longer. By the time the weekend comes around I’m dead tired. Landon said he was picking up take out and that we were staying in so I could relax.

“You’re pretty perfect you know that?” I say to Landon as he cleans up dinner. He just chuckles and goes about cleaning up.

“Go lay down, I’ll be in as soon as I’m done cleaning up.”

“Okay.” I say over my shoulder as I walk towards his room.

I must have dozed off because the next thing I know I’m in bed and my clothes have been removed. Landon is laying kisses all over my breasts. I stir, letting him know he has my full attention.

“Hey you.” He says it in such a sexy way. It sends goosebumps all over my skin. I could get used to this… if only I didn’t have this black cloud hanging over my head. Landon comes up

to kiss me, “Let me take care of you tonight.”

I start to object, but he places a finger over my lips and makes his way back to what he was doing. He settles between my thighs and it isn’t long before Landon takes me to see the stars burst and rain down over me.

Landon comes up to lay beside me and I immediately snuggle into his chest. I fit perfectly there. This new life isn’t so bad now that he’s around. As if he can read my thoughts he quietly says,

“I think I’m falling for you Evie. I need to know you are falling too.”

My heart races, he’s falling for me? I know I’m falling. I’m scared, plus I’m hiding so much of me. What if he finds out who I really am and takes off?

I decide to be honest. It’s the one thing he deserves and it’s the one thing I can give him.

“I’m falling too, but so scared.”

“That’s fair, I’ll take that. Are you scared because of the nightmares?”

Crap.

“You could say that, but please don’t ask me to talk about them.”

Landon kisses my forehead. “Okay, but at some point we will discuss them.”

I want to move on from my past. I miss Sarah so much but the fear of Chet is all too real. The last thoughts I have before sleep takes over are of my last moments running away from Sarah.

I wake suddenly and feel Landon’s strong arms holding me tightly. His eyes are full of turmoil. I sigh and close my eyes.

“Evie,” there’s a pause before Landon continues. “You can’t hide from this discussion.”

He’s right, finding a small sliver of courage I open my eyes to see his beautiful green eyes looking back at me.

“Landon, I…” I stop myself. I can’t tell him, he won’t understand. I hate this battle in my head. He is falling for Evie, not Eleanor. I’m digging myself a hole here and have no idea how to get out of it.

He reaches out and squeezes my arm. A sign he really cares and it makes me feel that much worse.

“I want you to be able to open up to me. I don’t like secrets.” Landon says flatly.

There’s that word. Secrets. I’m full of them these days. I feel ashamed at who I’ve become.

“Soon.” Is all I can say, hoping he’ll believe the lie.

“Soon.” He replies, then kisses me softly.

My heart breaks a little. I’m a terrible person for lying. I’m a fake, nevertheless he can’t know the truth. No one can.

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