Page 33 of Where Dreams Begin

“You were lucky, then.” Luke sipped his coffee, but his eyes were on Catherine rather than the charming photograph. He had shaved before coming to her house last night, and his beard barely shadowed his cheeks.

He seemed ready to go, but Catherine would have preferred to keep him in bed all day. “Would you like some breakfast?” she asked.

“You’re undoubtedly a marvelous cook, but I need to go home, clean up, and get to work. Are you coming in today?”

“Looks like we’re right back to where we began with my schedule.” She led the way downstairs, then took his mug and set it on the table in the entryway. She still felt warm all over and much too lazy to leave home.

She could barely find the energy to swing open the front door.

“No, not today,” she replied. “After last night, I’d be too distracted to get anything done.”

Luke leaned in to kiss her good-bye. “I’m going to take that as a compliment.”

“Good, it was meant to be.”

She remained at the open door until he’d driven away, but after closing it, she leaned back against the polished wood and slid down to the floor in a disjointed heap. She was happy clear to her toes, but while Luke had been quite pleasantly relaxed that morning, he’d left without expressing any hope of seeing her outside of Lost Angel.

Perhaps he’d forgotten their late night conversation about dating, or maybe her wistful memories of Sam had put him off, but he’d soon wear out his welcome if all he wanted was sex. Joyce dismissed such rude men as “Midnight Creepers”, and while her friend had run into more than her share, Catherine wouldn’t tolerate even one.

While Luke certainly had a healthy appetite for sex, so did she, but she’d never trusted condoms. She wondered if it wouldn’t be wise to go back on the pill. But after all the years of avoiding pregnancy, the possibility of an unplanned baby was almost irresistibly sweet. She harbored little hope that Luke’s response would be as positive, however, for after losing his only child, she doubted he’d welcome another.

It was a wrenching thought, but Luke was simply too vulnerable for their future to be forecast with any accuracy, and yet she felt a compelling need to know just what was possible. She’d prided herself on learning to live in the moment; but while it brought fleeting comfort, after one night with Luke, she needed more.

Embarrassed to feel so pathetically needy, she shoved herself to her feet and tightened her belt. One wild night didn’t mean Luke and she would fall in love and remain together, but that she could even entertain such an intriguing possibility gave her hope that one day Luke could too.

The heavy volume of commuter traffic demanded Luke’s complete attention on the way home, but once he’d stepped into his shower and turned on the water full-blast, he began to shake. Grief had numbed his emotions for so long, but last night he’d felt a hell of a lot more than mere lust.

Catherine had such a deceptively innocent gaze, he’d never expected her to be so abandoned in bed. Nor had he displayed a shred of reserve himself. And now what? he agonized. Seize the moment, or back off before it was too late?

“Oh, hell, it’s already too late.” He propped his arms against the tile and let the water pound down on his shoulders, but all he got for his efforts was wet. He might be able to wash off the lingering traces of Catherine’s seductive scent, but her endearing presence remained coiled around his heart. He could still feel the sweetness of her caress and hear her soft moans of surrender. Best of all was the memory of how gracefully she’d welcomed him into her bed.

Stubbornly refusing to allow his thoughts to drift in that enticing direction, he shut off the water and grabbed a towel. Catherine Brooks invited all manner of entertaining daydreams, but he resisted making plans for the real world beyond a single day. She deserved better. Hell, so did he, but he no longer trusted life to be good.

The problem was, now that he’d tasted Catherine’s delicious affection, he ached for more, but it disgusted him to offer no more than eventual disaster in return. If he possessed an ounce of character, he knew he should be brutally honest with her now.

He didn’t want another wife, nor could he bear to father another child who might go skipping off to school one day and never come home. He could see it all so clearly. It might take a year or even two before his refusal to consider marriage and family would force Catherine to end their affair with pain-choked sobs, but the day would surely come.

It would be better to blow it all apart right now. He wiped the fog from the mirror with a hand towel and stared at his reflection, but all he saw were eyes so shadowed by loss that he wondered if Catherine hadn’t already guessed the truth he’d kept so well-hidden last night.

In his present dark mood, he’d be lucky to shave without cutting his throat, and it was a damn good thing that Catherine wouldn’t be volunteering today. He’d barely lathered his cheeks, however, before the brief sense of relief turned to despair. He missed her already, but he was determined to do the honorable thing just as soon as he could speak the words.

Catherine was weeding the backyard flower beds when Joyce knocked lightly on the gate. “Are you busy?” she called. “I need help.”

Catherine stood, brushed off her knees and yanked off her gardening gloves. “Come on in. The weeds will wait. What’s the problem?”

Joyce reached over the gate to flip up the latch and let herself in. “It’s Wednesday, and I still haven’t called Shane. If I wait any longer, it’ll look as though he’s my last resort.”

“God forbid. Would you like some lemonade?”

“Thank you, I sure need something.” Joyce flopped down at the patio table and waited for Catherine to bring the refreshments. The flavorful beverage was as cold and sweet as expected, but when Catherine raised her glass, Joyce noticed a purple smear on her middle fingernail.

“I’ve always admired your poise. Please tell me that you didn’t slam your finger in a door.”

“Sorry, but that’s exactly what I did, and it wasn’t only stupid, but painful.”

“I’ll bet, but where’s your wedding ring?”

A white band marked its usual place on her finger, and suddenly self-conscious, Catherine dropped her hands into her lap. “I decided it was time to remove it, and as I left the bedroom, I pulled the door shut behind me and caught my finger.”

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