after all. We’re taking things
 
 one day at a time. One night
 
 at a time.
 
 The Problem with Meth
 
 Is similar. It changes
 
 everything. The monster
 
 and I are still friends.
 
 But we’re a different
 
 kind of friends. More
 
 than pals, fuck buddies.
 
 Six months since we met up
 
 again, we are inseparable,
 
 an intricate weave.
 
 No longer do I believe
 
 this is a temporary fling.
 
 More like total commitment.
 
 More like I have walked
 
 down the aisle, holding
 
 hands with the monster.
 
 I don’t think about the future,
 
 or what life would be like
 
 without crystal. It’s almost
 
 always here, within easy
 
 reach. I don’t think about
 
 what it might be doing to
 
 my brain, or my heart.
 
 I know people die from doing
 
 too much. But I’m in control.
 
 Okay, mostly in control.
 
 I am thin. But that’s how