Page 18 of Fractured Souls
“Why are you being so mean?”
“Mean? No, Cam. Earlier was mean. Using me because you’re lonely is mean."
“I didn’t use you, I just don’t know what we—”
“We? No, Cam. You. You kissed me. I didn’t stop it, but you started it.”
“I’m straight, I’m—” He snorts, folding his arms over his chest. His face is pinkening the way it does when he’s about to cry, which is rare. I hate it when he cries. “Hold on, wait. Please don’t cry.”
“I’m not crying!” he says wetly.
Taking his hands in mine, I hold them. “I fucked up. You’re right, that isn’t fair. My head is just a mess, and that’s not on you. You’re not a mistake, Bo.”
“So you don’t regret last night?” he challenges. I nearly swallow my tongue, not knowing what to say. I am confused. I want to say yes, but a tiny part of me doesn’t. “I know you’re sad, but you hurt me. I’m hurt.”
My stomach clenches. “I’m sorry. I am.” What he needs right now is honesty, and I’ve never been anything but honest with him. “I don’t regret what happened, but I shouldn’t have kissed you. I don’t know what came over me. I didn’t mind the kiss, though. The kiss was . . . nice.”
“Nice?”
Scorching fucking hot actually, but that’s the last thing he needs to hear. “I kiss you all the time, Bo. I’m sorry I got carried away.” I cup his face, tilting his head to look at me. “For what it’s worth, my bestie has some skills. You’re a great kisser.” I smirk and watch the way the sadness slowly disappears from his eyes.
“Thank you,” he says softly, but his eyes harden a moment later. “So it wasn’t a mistake?”
I pull him gently into me, hugging him tight. This right here, this is everything to me, and I won’t let something as stupid as sex ruin it. Bo means too much to me, and like Siena said, I’m too much. Boring and immature. Bo deserves someone great.
Instead of telling him this I kiss the top of his head. “I’m an idiot.”
Bo sighs inside the cocoon of my arms, nodding. “You really are.” He lets out a watery laugh, and kissing the side of his head, I let him go.
“Are we okay?”
“Yeah, we’re okay. At least until after you make me your special pizza.”
I smile, and without another thought I cup his face and press a small kiss to his lips, then another on his forehead.
“I love you. Last night just happened. I’m more comfortable with you than I am with anyone else, okay? I’m sorry.” He relaxes into my hands, then grabs my waist, pulling me in for a hug.
“I love you too, Cam.”
That makes me smile. “Now, let’s get you home before you get hangry on me.”
Chapter 5
Bo
“Bo,wehadasystem!” On his knees, Cam searches through my closet. After we cleaned up, we each had one more drink before I helped my drunk friend stumble into my room where he’s now frantically trying to find his box set ofDragon Ball.
I could tell him we can just get Crunchyroll, but Cam has a thing about physical media, and I’m not in the mood to hear his whole rant on streaming and owning the rights to his favorite shows.
Besides, I get to look at his ass while he’s on all fours searching.
A win is a win.
“I think it’s deeper in the closet.”
His glassy gaze whips back to me.
“Are you checking out my ass?”
