Page 22 of A Private Affair
Her meditation routine usually included candles and the tracks of crashing waves and trickling springs she had programmed to a special playlist. Tonight there was only Chaz.
Her heart thumped so loud she thought for sure he could hear it from where he sat about twelve feet from the bed. She lay back against the pillows, closing her eyes briefly and then opening them to stare up at the ceiling.
She could do this.
More important, she wanted to do this.
Extending her arm, Riley grabbed the crystal. She closed her eyes and focused on everything from the feel of it against her palms, to its shape and its purpose. Surprisingly, the desired calm came over her even though she was not alone. She could hear the waves in her mind and feel the warmth of the sun against her bare skin. And the crystal began to warm. It started to feel familiar in her hand, but not only because she’d used it so much in the past year. It felt like another phallus she’d held just a week ago.
She needed to clear her mind of everything but her happy place. Search for the good within herself and within the world that surrounded her.
That was what she did whenever she meditated. It was her purpose in taking solitary time to aid in her healing. But tonight she couldn’t find that place. There was a new goal in her mind and right now it felt closer than peace and healing. She didn’t have to search for it because it was there in the room with her. In her hand and across the room.
“When I close my eyes you’re there.” It was a quiet admission spoken just before she took the crystal in one hand and rubbed the tip over one tight nipple.
“I’m here right now.”
She hadn’t expected him to speak, but with the sound of his voice, her pussy throbbed and she spread her legs wide.
“You’re a distraction.” Riley circled the crystal over one nipple while the fingers on her free hand toyed with her other nipple. On one she squeezed tight, pulling and tugging until her breathing came faster. The other was being massaged by the warm crystal. Her breasts felt full, sensation moving from each nipple down to her gut, settling like a pool of hot lava at her center.
A soft moan escaped before Riley could pull back. She wanted to do this but at the same time she didn’t want to share too much, to show him anything deeper than a physical reaction. Her mind and her body fought to control which would be revealed.
“I can’t go.”
Why did she enjoy his voice so much? Her legs moved over the soft material of her champagne-colored comforter. She wanted him inside her, buried deep and thrusting powerfully until she couldn’t breathe, think or care. Riley took a deep breath and exhaled in a slow but shaky whoosh of air. She moved the crystal to the slope between her breasts, trailing it down her torso and stopping at her navel.
“You can’t stay.” The words came out in a whimper. They needed to be said out loud because her body wanted nothing more than for him to join her on this bed, to take her to that sweet place where she’d soared a week ago. She missed that place. Every day this week she’d thought about it and missed it more. Too much. She’d berated herself for the thoughts but tonight it was a simple truth.
“Not after tonight,” she whispered. “Not again.”
She moved the crystal lower until it slid along the shaved skin of her mound. Riley loved the sensation of being shaved—each touch felt a million times stronger, and she experienced each lick on a deeper level. It was amazing. It was also one of the things that gave her a sense of power over her own pleasure. With one hand she parted her folds and with the other she dragged the crystal over the slickness of her clit, down past her opening and back again, letting the coolness of the crystal mingle with the heat from her arousal.
With the crystal in one hand, she slipped two fingers into her aching center, gasping at the stretch and moaning with the pleasure streaking wildly throughout her body. She lifted her legs, flattening her feet on the mattress, and pumped her fingers in and out while circling the crystal over her clit. Her head thrashed on the pillows, teeth clenched tight. He wasn’t speaking but he was there. She could smell him and feel him in the heat that swirled throughout the room.
This wasn’t how her meditation usually happened. It wasn’t the feeling she normally sought. But this was good, too. In fact, it was magnificent. Her heart raced with the thrust of her hands. Her hips moved with the motion and Riley knew her release was near. She could feel it in every jolt of her thighs, the full sensation in her breasts. She heard it in the sound of her fingers moving against her coated walls, her essence dripping down between the crevice of her bottom and onto the bed.
“I’m right there with you.”
His voice was an intrusion. A pleasurable one.
“You look so damn beautiful, Riley. So strong and talented. The way you know exactly how to find your pleasure. You didn’t let me stop you. You’re in your own world bringing every sensation that you need.”
His words rolled around in her mind but they were hard to comprehend through the fog of desire. She was panting now, arching her back as she drove her fingers deeper.
“Damn! You’re so wet. So pretty and wet. I can’t stand it.”
Riley couldn’t, either. She needed this to end. She needed to fall over that cliff and float once again, to let the pleasure take her away. She dropped the crystal, using fingers from one hand to work her clit faster while the other hand continued to pump fiercely inside until her legs shook and a deep guttural moan eased from her throat.
“Riley! What are you doing to me?”
His voice was clearer now, in the few seconds just before her body stilled. Her release was intense, touching every part of her body, keeping her eyes closed tight, her fingers locking where they were, her toes curling into the comforter.
“Chaz!”
She hadn’t meant to say the name that seemed to be etched into her mind. She’d never called out a man’s name during sex, or during meditation.
Coming down from her release was like falling onto a bed of cotton. Riley sighed into the softness, relaxing her mind, body and soul.
