Page 111 of I Replaced His Husband
The whole idea was definitely interesting, but I had my problems.
When I got back upstairs, I went to take a shower.
I felt so… unbelievably tired.
All I wanted was to press my face into the pillow and fall asleep. Or maybe cry?
Warm water streamed over my skin, and I realized what was missing. Him. Kay. Being with him in an easy, effortless, pleasant way.
There were days like that, not many, but they happened, when he let himself forget his past for a moment and open up a little. Just a few moments, but I wanted to hold on to that feeling, to be with him in a warm, friendly,simpleway.
Still, even now, with him upset and dejected, I’d choose his presence over the emptiness of him not being there.
I wanted to see him so badly, but fear kept me frozen. I hesitated to just walk in there after everything that had happened today. In the end, fear won. He had to be the one to give me that right again, to make it clear that the space between us was open.
With slow movements, I dried off, feeling a gaping ache in my chest. Then I put adhesive bandages on the cuts on my arms and forehead, and when I came back to the room, I found a tray of food waiting for me. Adam must have brought it in quietly.
There was a small note on it.
"Rain, it still hurts me to think about how I treated you before. Please forgive me. You’re my brother-in-law now, my family, and you’ve saved my brother more than once. Thankyou wholeheartedly! You are the best! I can’t imagine a better person by his side.
—Adam."
For some reason, his words only made the pain worse.
Because Adam had already seen what we could be. Kay wasn’t quite there yet.
And I didn’t feel like I had the right to expect that from him.
Thepatiencething. It was killing me.
KAY
Seeing Rain leave was hard for me. I could see the pain in him, despite his best efforts to hide it. He was devastated by my reaction to the news and felt rejected. The Bond was already strong enough to feed all that information straight into me.
Every step he took across the patio and toward the beach felt like a thin wire between us was being stretched to the point of pain.
In my mind’s eye, I saw him fighting for me, knives cutting into him, their furious attacks, and his unwavering stance as he shielded me from them.
No hesitation, all in, just like Maurice used to be. He gave everything he had, and it meant the world to me.
But the truth was, he wouldn’t have had to fight if I hadn’t been so proud and fussy about the whole True Mate situation. We could’ve dealt with the wave in the back of the car. That was on me, no doubt about it. Well, yeah, partly on the alphas too. But walking around with such a strong pheromone discharge was, by design, dangerous in ABO society because of our scent-driven nature.
Adam and Marco’s eyes were on me the moment Rain left the room, assessing the situation.
Marco tilted his head and asked, "Are you being wise about this, Kay?"
That question could’ve meant a lot of things, and I instantly felt like I was under a microscope. I stood up abruptly.
"Gonna take a bath. I’ve spent hours in the car," I muttered, quickly heading for the door, because I could already see Adam’s furrowed brow and knew he was about to say something.
In the bathroom, I filled the tub with warm water and sank right in.
Gosh, I needed to wash it all off: the tension, the anger, the shock, that feeling of being on shaky ground.
I stayed there for a good half hour before getting out and drying off.
When I came back to the room, I found a tray of food waiting for me. I dug in hungrily, devouring everything and blocking out every other feeling for the moment.
