Page 3 of Release
Chapter 2
ALEXANDRA sat up in bed, disoriented. “Who is this?”
“Still not talking to me?” By now the male voice was unmistakable. It was Wilkes. “I’m not giving up, Lexxi. Now get up and come answer the door.”
“What?”
“I’m back in LA, darling,” he drawled. “I’m at your front door.”
“Go home, Wilkes. It’s the middle of the night.”
“It’s only eleven at night, honey. I need to talk to you.”
“Another time, Wilkes.”
“Fine. I’ll be down here waiting at the door until you find the time for me.”
Crap. This man is so damned persistent.
Eva was on to something with that restraining order idea.
“Christ. Okay, I’ll be down in a few minutes.”
Alexandra dragged herself out of bed and headed downstairs, grabbing a robe on the way. With more irritation than ever, she threw open the front door and scowled at him. The suave country boy was standing there, leaning against the doorjamb and wearing a sheepish smile.
“Good. You didn’t make me wait all night.”
“Don’t think it didn’t cross my mind.” She crossed her arms, tapping one foot impatiently. “Look, I’m giving you five minutes. What do you want, Wilkes? Say your piece and get the hell out of here. The floor’s yours.”
“You know what I want.”
“Well, in that case, you know my answer. I’m glad we got that out of the way. You can leave now.” She began to swing the door shut, but he blocked it with an outstretched hand.
“I’m fumbling the hell out of this. I can see that,” he chuckled. “Can I come in so we can really talk, Lexxi?”
“No.”
“Why not?”
“So you can find your next opportunity to degrade me publicly? What the hell do I look like, Wilkes?”
“I apologized about that. It won’t happen again, I promise.”
“Yet it already has, with that ridiculous proposal performance you put on back in the hotel lobby. What is wrong with you, Wilkes? Or maybe I should be asking myself that question.” She shook her head. She was not doing this again. “The answer is no, Wilkes. You do not get to come into my house. You have three more minutes to say whatever you need to get off your chest, and then you can leave.”
Wilkes let out an exhausted breath. Alexandra was over him now. It felt good to be able to feel nothing for him, after everything he had put her through. He stepped back, realizing he was out of options as Alexandra waited for him to speak. Looking at Wilkes now, she pretty much knew what he was going to say. She had heard the same speech from a ton of exes who fucked up in the past.I’m sorry, Lexxi. I know I messed up. Give me another chance.Ugh! It was like they all read from the same script.
This time turned out to be different. Contrary to her expectations, Wilkes didn’t launch into the same ole same ole. He removed his cowboy hat and began to pace, as if searching for words. This was the first time she had ever seen him appear nervous or hesitant. After a beat, he looked at her with a sober expression.
“I want to be honest with you in a way I didn’t feel I could be in the past,” he began. Alexandra tilted her head, curious to know what else—or who else—the bastard had been lying about. Wilkes continued, “I’ve always been scared of getting too emotionally involved because I was raised by a single mom. I never trusted relationships. Even when I met you and we got closer, I kept a distance I shouldn’t have.”
Alexandra uncrossed her arms uncomfortably. This was a first. Few people knew Wilkes’ troubled past. His mother spent most of his childhood passed out from pain pills because of a car accident she had been in eight months after she had delivered her fourth child. His father had packed it in and left them all around the same time, leaving Wilkes to take care of his three younger siblings. He used to tell Alexandra about how he had to steal just to have enough money to feed them all. Wilkes turned out to be his family’s only saving grace, when he found the courage to audition at a local open mic night. With his great voice and good looks, it wasn’t long before he got signed and made his first album. At his core, Wilkes was just a boy trying to take care of his family, and that’s what got Alexandra every time.
“I want you to realize…to really know this, Lexxi. Being with you was the single happiest time of my life. It had nothing to do with hit records or winning awards. You were more than a trophy to me. You represented what honest to God affection should feel like to someone who had to grow up real fast when my brothers and sister needed me.”
He choked up, and Alexandra grasped his hand out of empathy. “I understand, Wilkes. I’m sorry you had to go through that.”
“It’s not your fault. It’s all I’ve been thinking about since the story broke about my affair. I know you have the impression I used you and misrepresented myself. In retrospect, I was a cold, unfeeling bastard toward you. Lydia meant nothing to me, Lexxi. I didn’t even care for her, but my feelings for you were undeniable. I think I did what I did with Lydia because…I care for you, Lexxi. You’re the first woman I loved…and I love you. I guess I was afraid you would hurt me, Lexxi, and that scared me.”
